Deliver us from evil - Bullet for my Valentine
i woke up at 4am
turned my back on god
procrastinated til 4.30
got my shit at 4.40 and started my run
I usually run three 1.25km rounds, 1/4 of it flatland, then 1/4 up hill, another 1/4 flat and then another 1/4 downhill
its at a so so pace, sprinting only at the up and down hills
for the past 2 weeks ive been lazy
i skipped running
i ran only 2 rounds
i lost the definition in my abs
today was no different
i wanted to do only 2, after all it was already 5.06am
i had to eat a huge breakfast...
idk wat happened i decided to do the last 1.25km..
i wanted to reach back at 5.15am
worried that i cudnt make it home in time, i sprinted all the way.
Idk i guess it was the shock i got, that, hey, im running like the wind.
I was really sick as a kid, born underweight with asthma, scrawny, in and out of hospitals all the time
and ive done so many surgeries i lost count
i didnt eat ice cream or enjoyed coke as a kid til i was in sec2
and here i was.
the song on my player was deliver us from evil
What's happening to me
I'm dying from the inside
Body hurts too much to feel
And pressure adds to pain
Deliver us from evil
Straying out of sanity
Why can't you let me be
Is nothing else important
Does my mind mean more to you
Cause if I carry on
Deliver us from evil
Screaming for your vanity
Will darkness turn to light
Will darkness turn to light
Can someone wake me from this nightmare
Here we go
Here we go
The tank is empty let it try
I'm suffering
A passion ending
so the world ceases turning
The tank is empty let it dry
so now I hope you see
I'm nothing more than human
Making plans for enemies
But here we go again
Deliver us from evil
Crawling back to insanity
Idk i was crying as i ran, wind drying my face. i could feel the sweat lift off my body due to the resistance of air
its amazing, im not supposed to be like this
maybe its the weekly prayers at church, believing that god bore me sins and physical pain and suffering, that he really took my physical weakness away
i am grateful
turned my back on god
procrastinated til 4.30
got my shit at 4.40 and started my run
I usually run three 1.25km rounds, 1/4 of it flatland, then 1/4 up hill, another 1/4 flat and then another 1/4 downhill
its at a so so pace, sprinting only at the up and down hills
for the past 2 weeks ive been lazy
i skipped running
i ran only 2 rounds
i lost the definition in my abs
today was no different
i wanted to do only 2, after all it was already 5.06am
i had to eat a huge breakfast...
idk wat happened i decided to do the last 1.25km..
i wanted to reach back at 5.15am
worried that i cudnt make it home in time, i sprinted all the way.
Idk i guess it was the shock i got, that, hey, im running like the wind.
I was really sick as a kid, born underweight with asthma, scrawny, in and out of hospitals all the time
and ive done so many surgeries i lost count
i didnt eat ice cream or enjoyed coke as a kid til i was in sec2
and here i was.
the song on my player was deliver us from evil
What's happening to me
I'm dying from the inside
Body hurts too much to feel
And pressure adds to pain
Deliver us from evil
Straying out of sanity
Why can't you let me be
Is nothing else important
Does my mind mean more to you
Cause if I carry on
Deliver us from evil
Screaming for your vanity
Will darkness turn to light
Will darkness turn to light
Can someone wake me from this nightmare
Here we go
Here we go
The tank is empty let it try
I'm suffering
A passion ending
so the world ceases turning
The tank is empty let it dry
so now I hope you see
I'm nothing more than human
Making plans for enemies
But here we go again
Deliver us from evil
Crawling back to insanity
Idk i was crying as i ran, wind drying my face. i could feel the sweat lift off my body due to the resistance of air
its amazing, im not supposed to be like this
maybe its the weekly prayers at church, believing that god bore me sins and physical pain and suffering, that he really took my physical weakness away
i am grateful