insomina take me now
i cant sleep
theres just a lot running through my mind. like how all the shit threw up on the subject of friday night was just annoying and it pissed me off but i'm over it now. (ok i admit a bit peved but i'm good!)
then just like hopefully that my work turns out good for my projects is like AHH!!! i just have high standards for myself and it seems like im not as creative anymore or im not up to par with the others. it drives me nuts. i REALLY need to concentrate on that shit though after all this is my life!
practice was alright today @ the field except the knee pains are coming back at full force. i iced it when i came back. it just hurts when i stand from sitting for a while. its like a block has harden inside my knee and it stings and burns and it can be hard to walk with. man i really wished i had health insurance.
but the important thing is that i had fun this weekend. fuck whatever happened today and move on with life. if anything i really wanna move out of the dorms. no joke. (damn u andi! lucky lucky!!!) me and brit are thinking about messing around with it so it might happen. the only problem is just finding a job. man i wish i could cuddle with jon. just really nothing else but that.
i really wanna look pretty! as in dress up and all. my perfect op is coming feb 24th for the ASL "prom" (art student league) its a black and white formal and i really want to find a sexy cute black dress with awesome shoes and a small purse. i just wanna stun like everyone cause they havent seen me dressed up like that. it would be so much fun! i really want to go!!!!!!!!! hopefully jon wants/can come/go because it would suck if he couldnt. if he couldnt i dk maybe bring someone else along. i dk. i just wanna go on a sweet formal date like this.
speaking of that i need a hair cut. it's icky i just want it to be pretty again. i might just get my hair chopped off this week if i have the time and find some place nice.
man i have a feeling though that all of this wont happen or will blow up on me (besides the hair thing cause its really bothering me)
at least im getting to know the rugby girls better so thats good! they are a lot of fun so im down with that.
im out kids...............
theres just a lot running through my mind. like how all the shit threw up on the subject of friday night was just annoying and it pissed me off but i'm over it now. (ok i admit a bit peved but i'm good!)
then just like hopefully that my work turns out good for my projects is like AHH!!! i just have high standards for myself and it seems like im not as creative anymore or im not up to par with the others. it drives me nuts. i REALLY need to concentrate on that shit though after all this is my life!
practice was alright today @ the field except the knee pains are coming back at full force. i iced it when i came back. it just hurts when i stand from sitting for a while. its like a block has harden inside my knee and it stings and burns and it can be hard to walk with. man i really wished i had health insurance.
but the important thing is that i had fun this weekend. fuck whatever happened today and move on with life. if anything i really wanna move out of the dorms. no joke. (damn u andi! lucky lucky!!!) me and brit are thinking about messing around with it so it might happen. the only problem is just finding a job. man i wish i could cuddle with jon. just really nothing else but that.
i really wanna look pretty! as in dress up and all. my perfect op is coming feb 24th for the ASL "prom" (art student league) its a black and white formal and i really want to find a sexy cute black dress with awesome shoes and a small purse. i just wanna stun like everyone cause they havent seen me dressed up like that. it would be so much fun! i really want to go!!!!!!!!! hopefully jon wants/can come/go because it would suck if he couldnt. if he couldnt i dk maybe bring someone else along. i dk. i just wanna go on a sweet formal date like this.
speaking of that i need a hair cut. it's icky i just want it to be pretty again. i might just get my hair chopped off this week if i have the time and find some place nice.
man i have a feeling though that all of this wont happen or will blow up on me (besides the hair thing cause its really bothering me)
at least im getting to know the rugby girls better so thats good! they are a lot of fun so im down with that.
im out kids...............