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i've always said that i welcome change, and that i need new, fresh experiences to keep me happy. i've said that i can't imagine staying in the same place for the rest of my life; i'm the type of person who grows bored and restless. accordingly, and probably not-so-surprisingly, this summer i'll be flying to australia to intern and work.
in celebration of my graduation (right around the corner!), i've been fairly wasted for most of the past week. and before that, my time was consumed by sending emails, making phone calls and setting everything up for my future in australia. this busy lifestyle has kept me from realizing the reality of the situation: while my everything seems to be quite bright at the moment, im going through a major life transition.
there are so many people that i love, scattered around this world, and yet i've chosen to go back to australia for seven months. while there are many factors that have contributed to this decision, a major element is the fact that i'm dating someone there.
in making this decision to live in australia for some time, i of course knew there would be critics. i mean, the truth is people will have something to say about whatever you do, right? but i feel compelled to comment nevertheless.
in going to australia, i am making absolutely no statement about who is the most important to me. i don't think i could ever prioritize the people in my life. i wish everybody could know how important they were to me. i know that i am going to terribly miss so many people when i go to australia. man, i wish i could take everybody with me. but i know if i didn't go, my heart would hurt just as bad.
and so this is one of the toughest situations i've ever been put into. and i know that at times my life seems fairly care-free. but i promise you that i didn't one day drop everything and decide to go to australia. anybody who knows me well knows how carefully i consider things. ive spent countless nights laying in bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking about the pros and cons of each alternative. trust.
what it comes down to is this: i may have my worries and my crazy thoughts, but i am going to australia on may 28. if anybody feels slighted by this, i sincerely apologize. the world is massive, and it is a physical impossibliity for me to be with everybody i love at all times. it is a physical impossibility for any of us to be with everyone we love at all times. and so i was forced to make a choice, and it was a tough one.
i'll miss everybody so bad, but nothing is permanent, and everything is going to be OK. change is OK.
in celebration of my graduation (right around the corner!), i've been fairly wasted for most of the past week. and before that, my time was consumed by sending emails, making phone calls and setting everything up for my future in australia. this busy lifestyle has kept me from realizing the reality of the situation: while my everything seems to be quite bright at the moment, im going through a major life transition.
there are so many people that i love, scattered around this world, and yet i've chosen to go back to australia for seven months. while there are many factors that have contributed to this decision, a major element is the fact that i'm dating someone there.
in making this decision to live in australia for some time, i of course knew there would be critics. i mean, the truth is people will have something to say about whatever you do, right? but i feel compelled to comment nevertheless.
in going to australia, i am making absolutely no statement about who is the most important to me. i don't think i could ever prioritize the people in my life. i wish everybody could know how important they were to me. i know that i am going to terribly miss so many people when i go to australia. man, i wish i could take everybody with me. but i know if i didn't go, my heart would hurt just as bad.
and so this is one of the toughest situations i've ever been put into. and i know that at times my life seems fairly care-free. but i promise you that i didn't one day drop everything and decide to go to australia. anybody who knows me well knows how carefully i consider things. ive spent countless nights laying in bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking about the pros and cons of each alternative. trust.
what it comes down to is this: i may have my worries and my crazy thoughts, but i am going to australia on may 28. if anybody feels slighted by this, i sincerely apologize. the world is massive, and it is a physical impossibliity for me to be with everybody i love at all times. it is a physical impossibility for any of us to be with everyone we love at all times. and so i was forced to make a choice, and it was a tough one.
i'll miss everybody so bad, but nothing is permanent, and everything is going to be OK. change is OK.