random thoughts.

[bruntonbbong]

when you're in a relationship, if it's a good one, you really give a piece of yourself to someone else.  and actually, it's more than just a piece.  it's made up of several pieces.  you find yourself sharing with that other person things you've loved your whole life.  secret stories and admissions you never thought would leave your mouth are suddenly OK to tell.  and, not that this is occurring in my own life right now, because it's not, but that's why break-ups are so fucking scary.  ending a relationship obviously means sometimes living in fear of accidentally coming into contact with a new person, place or thing that reminds you of your past significant other.  but, i think more importantly, what is so devastating are the old memories and personal experiences that, at one point, only you knew about.  these private thoughts and reflections may now remind you of someone else; they're not your own anymore.  those are the situations that are inescapable, and those are the situations that are terrifying.

RANDOM because my relationship is actually going really well now, across the world and everything.  i think being involved in something serious has just made me realize how much you put on the line in a relationship.  you have so much to lose, and yet you keep going.  jeez.  good luck to all of us.