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Last night reading the e-mail's you sent put me to tears. I knew thing's were hard for you but, I had no Idea it was *that* hard. Why, why didn't you tell me? :'( Yeah, I'll admit that sometimes I wish I could just leave and never come back, but I didn't realize when I was thinking this, so were you. I never said anything to you or anyone else. I showed my actions. Remember 8th grade? I started hurting myself, I hated life, I wanted to be gone. But I knew that not even though not everyone likes me or cares about me, I have a few people that do, and you are one. And so do you. More people care about you then you might think. Since the 1st day you came up too my door asking me to be your friend you have been by my side. No matter what happened's. Your the one who knows everything about me, and I know I can trust with my life. I feel like I'm missing something. But reading that made me think, what if something did happen to you and you were gone? Then I felt the tears start dripping from my eye's. I would die with out you. You have been the best friend anyone could ever ask for. If I need someone to talk to you are there, if I'm crying you find a way to put a smile on my face, and make me laugh, if I'm just having a bad day you'll let me talk to you and even yell just to get it out. Let me do the same for you. Let me know anything I can do for you. I love you to pieces, I can't go a day without you*! I stayed up last night crying. Talking to mom, I needed someone to talk to and I couldn't go to you because it was about you. It was what you said, and it scared me to death. So talked to her, she also go scared because your like a daughter to her. Please don't do anything, or scare me anymore. I'm not sure how much more I can take. I need you. And I will be here for you anytime you need me. xx3*