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Jul 01, 2008 22:34

So Day 2 of my two week blessings tracker has me discovering that today I am blessed by free will (and not necessarily my own).

Yes, free will.  But while it is a blessing (like today for me), it is certainly a double edged sword and can be a burning arrow in the bum as well.  But the more I started thinking about my blessings today, the more I realized that I am where I am because of free will (of my own doing and from the free will of others, too).

Case in point...I feel blessed by God (because I believe in God) through the gift of my family.  Greg, Emma, Logan.  Even Sadie.  My family.  But they were totally a product of free will.  This is where my point comes in.

I was once previously married for seven years.  I will not go into any details as to the demise of my previous marriage, nor will I disparage my ex.  I refuse to put that kind of toxic energy into the universe.  But I will say that it indeed ended through the free will of my ex.  And as much as I didn't understand the why's at that time, I knew all too well that it was his choice--his free will--to do whatever he wanted to do.  And back then it was my free will that made me press ahead...move forward.  And as a result, I have the amazing family I have now.

If I had stayed in that previous marriage, I would not have the life I have now.  I would not have Greg (a man who doesn't judge me, who doesn't compare me to others, who accepts me for my faults and imperfections).  I would not have Logan.  I would not have Sadie.  I would not have made the indelible friendships I have made (the type of friendships that change a person for the better).  I would not have experienced even 1/10th of what I have experienced thus far.

And for that...a free will decision made by someone else three years ago, I am more blessed in this moment right now than I was in seven years of my previous marriage.


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