Lost in Confusion
I think my haed is going to explode... Last night all I wanted was someone to talk to... So since I really don't have anyone here that I thought might be able to understand what then hell is going on in my head I called Missy... Yeah big mistake... Well she made me feel like complete and total shit and I told her about Anna having a crush on me and she told me that was all my fault too... She said it was all my fault that we broke up and that everything ever since I have moved down here has been my fault... I can't take it anymore... I am not happy down here and I haven't been for a while now... The only reason I stayed down here after me and Missy broke up was because I thought there was family down here that loved me and thought of me as their own child... Well it seem that since Missy has moved home that has all changed... Missy tole me that is was my fault that Anna and Chris don't talk to her anymore... I had nothing to do with that... Anna doesn't even talk to her parents anymore becuase of Missy... The night that Anna got into it with her parents was all because of Missy... Missy threw a fucking fit that night like a god damn little 10 year old... But, I guess she only acts like the people she hangs around... Her best friend is 12... But, I guess that night Missy got grounded and her dad told her that she was making his life miserable again now that she was living back at home... She seriously needs some fucking help... I know that most of the shit that has happened since I have been down here hasn't been my fault... But, it just seems like ever since I moved down here everything has fallen apart... So that is why I have decided that I need to move out... I need to get away from everything... All my clothes are packed... and I have a ride home as long as I get my paycheck on Thurs. but my other problem is that I really don't have anywhere to go... I need to find a place to stay... According to Chris mom won't let me move back in and neither will dad... So I don't know what I am going to do... I need to get a job and a car... I need to do a lot... I just have sooo much on my mind right now... I will prolly post more later....