What to do...?
I don't know what I should do... I have been staying with my mom for 2 day and we have already kinda got into an argument...
I came home from work and told her that I was going to go get Karin for a bit so she could help me unpack some more... And well, she looked at me and said... "Can't you unpack by yourself... You are wasting money and gas by going over there and getting her..." That really kinda made me mad... Because even tho I am not living with Karin I still want to see her... It just really sucks because my mom doesn't agree with the whole gay thing but she deals with it... But Karin isn't allowed to spend the night here or anything like that... Another thing that she said to me on Saturday after I got all of my things over here and we sat down and talked was that... "I offered to let you stay here because I didn't actually think you would move in..." That really made me mad... I don't feel comfortable here and I don't feel at home or welcome here... I feel like an outsider and a intruder....
Soooooo....
Tonight instead of unpacking things here... Me and Karin went to my dads so I could talk to them about moving in down there... I don't know how much better it will be down there but at least I know that I am accepted... And Karin can spend the night and stuff like that too... I think that I will be happier down there than I ever will be here... I just don't know what to do... My step mom said that she would talk to my dad tomorrow about it... When I was talking to her about it I told her that I needed my own room... Don't get me wrong... I have nothing wrong with sharing a room with a 2 year old... But, I have to get up early for work and I don't want my alarm to wake him or anything like that... I don't think that living at dads would be all that bad now because I have a full time job and I will be gone most of the time anyways... So it shouldn't be to bad....
If I move out of mom's I am going to do it on Saturday when her and JR. are closing the camper for the year... I am going to do it when they aren't home so I don't have to hear the shit from them... It is just hard becuase no matter what I do I am going to get shit from the family... But oh well, you can't make every one happy... And the only person I care about being happy right now is me... And I am not happy as it is right now... Call me selfish or whatever you wish... I also care about Karin being happy and all of that as well..... But, it is getting late and I have to be at the office by 9 and then I am off to PA... Woo hoo... I hate my home over there... the guy I have to deal with over there is a asshole... But you can't win them all... oh well...
Later,
Nicole
I came home from work and told her that I was going to go get Karin for a bit so she could help me unpack some more... And well, she looked at me and said... "Can't you unpack by yourself... You are wasting money and gas by going over there and getting her..." That really kinda made me mad... Because even tho I am not living with Karin I still want to see her... It just really sucks because my mom doesn't agree with the whole gay thing but she deals with it... But Karin isn't allowed to spend the night here or anything like that... Another thing that she said to me on Saturday after I got all of my things over here and we sat down and talked was that... "I offered to let you stay here because I didn't actually think you would move in..." That really made me mad... I don't feel comfortable here and I don't feel at home or welcome here... I feel like an outsider and a intruder....
Soooooo....
Tonight instead of unpacking things here... Me and Karin went to my dads so I could talk to them about moving in down there... I don't know how much better it will be down there but at least I know that I am accepted... And Karin can spend the night and stuff like that too... I think that I will be happier down there than I ever will be here... I just don't know what to do... My step mom said that she would talk to my dad tomorrow about it... When I was talking to her about it I told her that I needed my own room... Don't get me wrong... I have nothing wrong with sharing a room with a 2 year old... But, I have to get up early for work and I don't want my alarm to wake him or anything like that... I don't think that living at dads would be all that bad now because I have a full time job and I will be gone most of the time anyways... So it shouldn't be to bad....
If I move out of mom's I am going to do it on Saturday when her and JR. are closing the camper for the year... I am going to do it when they aren't home so I don't have to hear the shit from them... It is just hard becuase no matter what I do I am going to get shit from the family... But oh well, you can't make every one happy... And the only person I care about being happy right now is me... And I am not happy as it is right now... Call me selfish or whatever you wish... I also care about Karin being happy and all of that as well..... But, it is getting late and I have to be at the office by 9 and then I am off to PA... Woo hoo... I hate my home over there... the guy I have to deal with over there is a asshole... But you can't win them all... oh well...
Later,
Nicole