Jan 22, 2005 11:52
-MIDTERMS-
English- 100
Math- 99
History- 98
Bio- 90
Comp. Applications- didnt really have one.
Spanish II- don't know, dont' care
So I'm doing wicked good right? In a school sense, sure.
I dont' even do it for myself though. Lately I don't feel like I live for myself at all.
I can be happy but that turns to shit quickly, for no reason whatso-ever.
Well who the fuck wants to hear this loser talk.
Why do I bother having a journal when no one cares what goes on in my life anyways.
I dont have any real friends. The ones I thought were real have been proving themselves differently this year.
I live for my dog, my family, but not for me.
I dont' wake up and go to school for myself
I dont do my homework for myself
I dont smile for myself
I don't eat for myself. (well maybe a little, but that's just cuz im a pig)
The one thing I do for myself is Drugs, and that is to cover up everythign that i dont do for myself.
To Blur The Truth.
Make Belive like i'm not here.
I feel empty. I can't even cry right anymore.
If I didn't have a family or my dog I would kill myself.
Because they're the only ones I live for.