I feel sick.
So I missed my flight about a week ago. And now I'm staying here. At Greg's with his family. And I feel like I have to walk around on glass. I feel as if his parents are always judging me to tell him later on how they think he's making a bad decision.
Life has felt dreadful. I hurt emotionally and it's become physical. All because of the past and how I think about it constantly. What happened to me? This stuff used to be such a breeze. And I used to not care and be independent. But now it's like I'm trapped.
I've wasted my summer waiting for my life to be alright and all set. And now it's falling apart. I sit here wanting to get a job and on our own. Wanting everything perfect with no worries. And Greg sleeps until 7+pm.
I havent done a single thing I want or need to do.
I cant get my things from florida until I come up with 600 to do so. I cant help but think of who's noses have been in my stuff from curiosity or how my cat is. Who I will have to deworm when I do get him up here. Due to the fact that they are letting the rat nasty cat from outside in to play with him and eat out of his bowl. So that's maybe another 1-200. I'm going to have to waste all of my annuity money to just live. Until I get a job. But it isnt like all of that money from my job wont be blown on stupidity also. So my annuity money to live.
I'm 112lbs. but it doesnt look like it. I've gained my cankles and ass back from the little time I havent been active.
I'm thinking maybe of becoming a runaway. Who wants to join me?
On the bright and good side. Support Doll Trash.
Doll Trash's Myspace
Doll Trash's Purevolume
Because I adore Inez to death.
Life has felt dreadful. I hurt emotionally and it's become physical. All because of the past and how I think about it constantly. What happened to me? This stuff used to be such a breeze. And I used to not care and be independent. But now it's like I'm trapped.
I've wasted my summer waiting for my life to be alright and all set. And now it's falling apart. I sit here wanting to get a job and on our own. Wanting everything perfect with no worries. And Greg sleeps until 7+pm.
I havent done a single thing I want or need to do.
I cant get my things from florida until I come up with 600 to do so. I cant help but think of who's noses have been in my stuff from curiosity or how my cat is. Who I will have to deworm when I do get him up here. Due to the fact that they are letting the rat nasty cat from outside in to play with him and eat out of his bowl. So that's maybe another 1-200. I'm going to have to waste all of my annuity money to just live. Until I get a job. But it isnt like all of that money from my job wont be blown on stupidity also. So my annuity money to live.
I'm 112lbs. but it doesnt look like it. I've gained my cankles and ass back from the little time I havent been active.
I'm thinking maybe of becoming a runaway. Who wants to join me?
On the bright and good side. Support Doll Trash.
Doll Trash's Myspace
Doll Trash's Purevolume
Because I adore Inez to death.