It's just the way you move me
It sucks when friends feel the need to make sarky comments about things that are important to you. They may seem silly and like a fantasy to them but when your heart is in it, it breaks your heart to have friends throw it away as something pointless and stupid. Sometimes words hurt and people think that they don't but they do, but then again maybe they say these things because of a part of them knows how you'd react to it. Maybe sometimes people don't think. Maybe some people just don't know you as well as you think they did, or they're just sick of you or bored of your usual drama. Maybe I should just come and and say 'if you haven't been in the situation before then please don't judge, you don't know how you'd react.' or 'If you can't accept me for who I am then just leave it altogether. I'm insecure, I worry about things that seem silly and don't worry about the more serious things, I'm stuck in this old notion of love and I like being stuck in it because it's beautiful and it's something that moves me. Maybe I'm a fool? Just don't judge me for being me.'
You guys are probably like 'eh? wtf!' don't worry about it, I'm just being me.
Time of the month started today. lots of maybes.
Generally I'm good. Had a good day at work, lots of talking to Caroline, Chris & Katrina. Went to lunch with Kat and she was saying a few things that made sense but would take a huge leap of faith so I'll think some more and maybe talk some more to her. Caroline is all loved up with John, she was texting me last night asking about thursday and John was peering over her shoulder asking her for the lowdown. lol. They both work with me so it's adorable. They're so right for each other, funny how they've been friends for over a year and its just a month ago that they got together. So perfect, they make me happy.
cookiesdrunk - I love you so, don't be sad and don't be silly. Nat loves you and Jim loves you and I love you and you know that even David loves you! (I'm still so sure that the two of you are going to get together. Having watched Boys & Girls on BBC2 an hour ago I'm even more certain of it :P). So much love <3
I'm so gonna get sick of this song soon, not yet but soon. It's addictive though.
I miss my aunt, I have a scanner now, so I'll scan in the picture I keep of her in my room at some point tomorow. It's one of my baby pictures. Did I mention that we were at the graveyard on tuesday? The entire family went, first time we've all been together and Sasha got really upset so I had to take her back to the car. I just sat with her in my arms till everyone was done. She never cries at the graveyard but it's the fact that everyone was there but at the same time it wasn't everyone because we're never going to be able to be 'everyone' ever again. I just wish I could take her pain away. I love her so, I'm lucky, not everyone gets along with their cousins as well as I get along with mine. With all of them.
I'm tired. Clocks go back tonight so extra hour of sleep.
You guys are probably like 'eh? wtf!' don't worry about it, I'm just being me.
Time of the month started today. lots of maybes.
Generally I'm good. Had a good day at work, lots of talking to Caroline, Chris & Katrina. Went to lunch with Kat and she was saying a few things that made sense but would take a huge leap of faith so I'll think some more and maybe talk some more to her. Caroline is all loved up with John, she was texting me last night asking about thursday and John was peering over her shoulder asking her for the lowdown. lol. They both work with me so it's adorable. They're so right for each other, funny how they've been friends for over a year and its just a month ago that they got together. So perfect, they make me happy.
cookiesdrunk - I love you so, don't be sad and don't be silly. Nat loves you and Jim loves you and I love you and you know that even David loves you! (I'm still so sure that the two of you are going to get together. Having watched Boys & Girls on BBC2 an hour ago I'm even more certain of it :P). So much love <3
I'm so gonna get sick of this song soon, not yet but soon. It's addictive though.
I miss my aunt, I have a scanner now, so I'll scan in the picture I keep of her in my room at some point tomorow. It's one of my baby pictures. Did I mention that we were at the graveyard on tuesday? The entire family went, first time we've all been together and Sasha got really upset so I had to take her back to the car. I just sat with her in my arms till everyone was done. She never cries at the graveyard but it's the fact that everyone was there but at the same time it wasn't everyone because we're never going to be able to be 'everyone' ever again. I just wish I could take her pain away. I love her so, I'm lucky, not everyone gets along with their cousins as well as I get along with mine. With all of them.
I'm tired. Clocks go back tonight so extra hour of sleep.