Sep 30, 2004 12:55
Well obviously thats a lie. Josh and i have become "friends" once again. Its amazing how soon i enter his life, Jeff is right on my tail. I was over there and he called Josh telling him he was going to Oil Cans tonight with some dude from his work. Great. As soon as he mentioned jeff, the old feelings i had for him came rushing in. To make things worse, he kept trying to wrestle with me like im some straight dude. One day i will wrestle him and im going to kick his fucking ass. All the anger and frustration has built up inside me and is waiting to explode. I would much rather release this stress by fucking him but i dont think thats going to happen so i might as well just kick his ass so it will make me feel better.
Its kind of ironic that all of his friends are really into me. They buy me drinks and try to get me really fucked up so i will go to bed with them. Um, its going to take a lot more alcohol and who-knows-what to get me to do that. Please gurl. MMMMkay. Haha jp. So anyway, jeff shows up and comes up to me and tries to be all polite with his hick, la grange accent. I shook his hand but i didnt give him a hug. If i wrapped my arms around him it would be to choke him, not to give him a friendly embrace. Josh and Jeff found themselves a cousy little corner of the bar and talked and waved for me to come over. I pretended i was too drunk to realize what they wanted me to do and pretended they were just saying hi. Losers. Ill just pretend im over it as well. Yes, that is what i shall do.
Nate is mad at me right now. He is so dumb when it comes to his sexuality. He tries to convince everyone hes bi like being gay is this horrible thing. You are 21 years old and if you really, truely wanted to fuck a girl, you would have done it by now. The reason you want to be able to fuck girls is because you think that if you can fuck girls then all the straight boys you want to come fuck you will do it because you believe everyone is bi. It doesnt work out that way dude. Dont be so egotistical and be like the stupid straight guys that are like "Yeah, im gonna fuck her." "She wants my dick so bad." I dont really think most girls want a gay boys dick. Thats just my personal opinion anyway. But seriously its the whole michael jackson thing. Im black but im going to make myself white and still try to convince all the african americans that hes still crunk and his heezy for sheezy. Aint flying with me.
Ben is also pissing me off but im not going to get into it. Way too much shit to write about. It isnt even funny. Ive tried to excommunicate him but the fly keeps coming like im some flaming light. Hehe, well i am flaming....But seriously, i dont know what to do with him. I dont want to be a bitch but im afraid im going to have to be. Haha, like its hard for me to do or something...
I just miss all my h-town friends because they are all on the same level as me. They understand me like no other and keep me sane with all the bull shit that goes down in austin. Sometimes i feel im too intelligent for my own good. I know it sounds concieted but all the brainiacs out there no what im talking about. People dont like someone who is always right. Shit they should meet my friends in houston where im the dummy.