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a little more than a little upset about last night. if people DONT want to hang out with me, they really should JUST TELL ME. i'm a lot more understanding than i think most people give me credit for. i was venting to brandon last night about how lindsay ditched me and hes like 'cara, you're such a caring person. you shouldnt let people walk on you like that' ... it meant so much to hear someone say that, other than my mom. because I really SHOULDNT let people walk all over me. but i think the person i am, and the things i do, make it really easy for people to do that. i just give give give and i try so hard to please EVERYONE no matter who it is or what importance they have in my life. i DONT stick up for myself, and i DONT let people know when I'm upset. its just easier that way. yay for being passive aggressive. caitlin said last night how she has such a short fuse and gets annoyed/pissed off really easily. i have a short fuse. but the difference between me and caitlin is no one with EVER know i'm annoyed at them or pissed at them. because i just dont want to create that drama. because i HATE conflict more than anything. and as my mom says "i'm so overly sensitive" ... i really am. example: someone at work told me to make sure i was telling people they'd get 10% off by being PREAPPROVED. (i was leaving out the preapproved part) ... and it made me so sad and ruined my day. just the slightest thing can upset me.

INTERRUPTION: omgosh, the greatest episode of spongebob is on. squigward gets a snail just liek GARY (gary is orgasmic, okay?!?!) and her name is Snellie and shes a PUREBRED!!! and hes entering snellie into the snail race, but GARY cant be in that race because GARY isnt a PUREBRED!! oh man. i love the episodes that revolve around Gary.

i'll write more later, i want to go watch spongebob.