Random question....
As the end of the school year draws nigh, I have realized that all my efforts of removing the "baggage" from my life, and sorting things out and the general amelioration of my life have been in vain. It feels like, regardless of how much I want to make things better, get on with my problems and move on, I simply can't. There's WAY TOO MUCH shit going on, and I know I'm to blame for bringing this shit into my life, but now that I'm trying to fix it, it's just sitting there like a huge un-budgable rock. A lot of things have happened over the year, really, really, bad things and dealing with them means dealing with the past. Unfortunately, I don't want to sit and look back into the past, although I'm not entirely sure I want to see what my future has in store for me either. I figure it won't be that bad, but I'm still hesitant to challenge it at this point. Improvement is a hard thing to do. I guess I should just suck it up and deal with it instead of bitching about it in my livejournal....whatever.