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i wish i could study literature and philosophy in university. i am oh so amazed at the elegance of it all. can one act cultured without being cultured? what do you talk about at dinner parties? we don't have the same friends, nor the same lifestyle. you are enchanting. i am overtly bold. rather, i can be. it seems i have lost who i am. being swept up in a world where promiscuity is rewarded with high fives has left me unconscious. i am a professional party host. and not the aforementioned charming dinner parties. my colleagues don't believe that i am not the same person when i take off my shoes and put away my wine opener. i can be charming. i can be flirtatious. i can be outgoing. i am a character under the lights but when the cameras stop rolling, i am a turtle. i would rather cozy by the fire than light a cigarette. i would rather nibble cookies than have a drink. i would rather have you than anything else.