Mar 02, 2008 04:25
har har + edity goodness for sense.
fawning endlessly over someone who's not interested anymore is fine as if not else it's symbolic of affirmation of direction. anxious about a new job. tense over time sent with spinal cancer father who is suddenly making me self conscious with comments of pride at my accomplishments ( although, thinking about it I could have achieved much more). keeping myself entertained I hit on some chick at the cat. chick has a boyfriend named matthew, lol, not funny, well a little... chick is my ex-gilfriend kat's boss. kat showed up at the cat. hung out with the both of them, had an awesome time. got attacked with lips and hips by a third party but escaped unscathed and hid behind kat and jessica.
life = huh?
srsly?
I feel like i'm on the truman show sometimes.
its so rare that I'm driven and certain (not really, more it's rare that I express it). sorta annoyed by universe teasing me with the past,. not because it's bad, but because I am set in my ascertions (the uncanny timing of events often seem more fate than coincidence). sidenote: asian cougar at work has pre-emptively began hitting on me. is it really needed to antagonize my lustful nature, oversensitive past emotions, prior family stress points, and potential economic futures all at the same time?
I'm not scurred or anything, I'm just blown away by chaos theory's ability to slam everything at me at once like I fucked it's mom and it's bitter over it. me and universe are going to step out back and settle this like men, I.E. taint punching n erple nerples.