"Ooo, I Got A Call Today From My Job Up The Block."
I wonder sometimes about life and all that it entails. Why does one thing happen instead of another? Can you go this way after you've gone that way? Is this really what you should be doing?
I just got let go from Costco. They told me the main reason was my speed when it came to boxing items. They also said that they had warned me, but I have no recollection of any such warning. There was no notice, no cautionary tale, no hint. Just "Before you punch in, I'd like to talk to you in the office."
While they were telling me the news I kept asking myself why I couldn't keep a damn job. And it's not like I go out of my way to get fired. I go to work, do the best that I can, kick myself in the ass when I realize that I'm slacking and try to make the best of it.
I had no problem keeping jobs when I was at home. I was working at the Outback here for 6 months before I got canned, and I was at Costco for less than a month before I got the boot. I don't understand what the fuck is going on with me and my life.
I take it as a sign that I have to get started on my career, right now. Maybe this is Someone's way of telling me that the time is right, not in two months, not next year, but now in December of 2009.
The only problem is I'm not sure which way to go. I've called the publisher/agent, and she has yet to call me back with any concrete details. I hate to keep bothering her, but I also realize that this is something that's going to take time and dedication.
I just hate getting a job, getting a decent cash flow and making plans to buy this, take care of that, and pay this before I'm pushed off of a cliff.
And with both jobs I got the axe for pretty much the same reason: It's like I'm not there, not focusing. And it's true, usually I just went through the motions at both Outback and Costco. If I'm not passionate, if I don't truly care about something, I don't put my all into it.
I don't know what to do now, where to turn. I know I need to find a job fast, but I don't want another dead end job. It's frustrating as hell and I don't want to ask my parents for money, but I also don't want to suffer silently.
I'll leave you with a line from Electric. "Life's a struggle, but struggle's a blessing, solutions for your mind to manifest in."
This is a big ass blessing!
Peace. Out.
I just got let go from Costco. They told me the main reason was my speed when it came to boxing items. They also said that they had warned me, but I have no recollection of any such warning. There was no notice, no cautionary tale, no hint. Just "Before you punch in, I'd like to talk to you in the office."
While they were telling me the news I kept asking myself why I couldn't keep a damn job. And it's not like I go out of my way to get fired. I go to work, do the best that I can, kick myself in the ass when I realize that I'm slacking and try to make the best of it.
I had no problem keeping jobs when I was at home. I was working at the Outback here for 6 months before I got canned, and I was at Costco for less than a month before I got the boot. I don't understand what the fuck is going on with me and my life.
I take it as a sign that I have to get started on my career, right now. Maybe this is Someone's way of telling me that the time is right, not in two months, not next year, but now in December of 2009.
The only problem is I'm not sure which way to go. I've called the publisher/agent, and she has yet to call me back with any concrete details. I hate to keep bothering her, but I also realize that this is something that's going to take time and dedication.
I just hate getting a job, getting a decent cash flow and making plans to buy this, take care of that, and pay this before I'm pushed off of a cliff.
And with both jobs I got the axe for pretty much the same reason: It's like I'm not there, not focusing. And it's true, usually I just went through the motions at both Outback and Costco. If I'm not passionate, if I don't truly care about something, I don't put my all into it.
I don't know what to do now, where to turn. I know I need to find a job fast, but I don't want another dead end job. It's frustrating as hell and I don't want to ask my parents for money, but I also don't want to suffer silently.
I'll leave you with a line from Electric. "Life's a struggle, but struggle's a blessing, solutions for your mind to manifest in."
This is a big ass blessing!
Peace. Out.