Sacrafice makes me a way better mother than you'll ever be!
The older I get the more I understand sacrifice and how love of a child will make you put things in perspective. I have had my share of moments with Jaymes but by far the hardest decision I had to make was send him away to go to school for preschool in St. Francisville at his grandmother house with his dad. Preschool here in BR was full, so when his grandmother made the offer to inquire to enroll him in East Feliciana I took it for what it was and jumped at the chance if it was possible so that he was in preschool and this would give me time and space to maneuver and return to school myself as well as work and grind to make sure i had everything financially set so he could come home. I don't like having chaos around me and when the chance presented itself I grabbed it. Well my mother has a issue with me making a decision that will overall benefit my son and myself and all parties directly involved are gonna win and starts a tirade of hatred against me and his grandmother when the decision is solely mine alone, lets not neglect to mention, while he was home this past week she wasn't do anything to help with him so that I could adequately apply for jobs and search for employment and any and every small thing he did he worked her nerves and she wanted to hell and scream about it. I'm sitting here disgusted, angry and really weighing my options to distance myself, cut my losses and walk off from having any hope of her being a normal parent. This solidified in my mind she is seriously mentally ill and that when she has no control she will lash out and create discord wherever she can just to prove she can. I'm not above or beyond asking for help and right now taking into account all that this summer has brought good and bad I'd rather time to focus on myself and to make moves to overall long term benefit Jaymes rather than struggle and have him with me and seeing no way to better myself.