ashamed.
i feel so empty; the walls are caving in beside me, and the only thing i hear is criticsm or stupid shit from the only ones i love through silence and cold stares. i think if one were to be loved, they'd be free from doubt or any care. and i know this because i lack it from family. day after day. sometimes i feel like just giving up, i guess i'm not weak enough. if i were a bird i'd fly to mount everest and never leave with my love bird. i don't think i want him to love me anymore, i don't think i want him anymore.