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why do you ahve to confuse me so? hmm? one second you're giving me the greatest hug for the silliest reason and when i joke and say you know you love me, you agree, but with the most genuine smile. and thennnnn, tehre are times when it feels like you're ignoring me and not answering my calls, and i dont wanna feel like im being jerked around and you only do this when you feel like itm and i really jsut wanna know that what you said and still do say is true becuase i still mean and i will for a long time. and i need you to need me right now. becuase you're my escape, you're the one thing that makes me smile after a horrible day, you,re the one person that seems to be able to cheer up about something that even YOU did. and nobody, NOBODY that ive ever known no matter how close they are to me, has been able to do that. and i just wanna know. so please, tell me. soon.