Marching Band, what else?
So, this is another rant. A rant in which I am displeased with all possible outcomes. FML. I have been having a horrible time at marching band as of late. I will start with my unreliable ride situation... My family has one car,and my mom is the only one with a licence. Mom also has a very busy social life, which involves her taking the car and being gone with the car all day. When she's home, I have a ride--otherwise, forget it. I am late every rehearsal, and can't go to some--and I get yelled at everytime. I am superstressed. I am always miserable at practice because there is always something else I am giving up that I should be doing instead of being at practice/rehearsal (like homework, laundry (our washing machine is still broken), or other various things), and getting to rehearsal usually involves a fight with my mom, so I am always in a bad mood. Always. This is my first year in the Drumline. I play the second largest bass drum. Ever since the six hour plus band camp, I have had earaches after every rehearsal--and now it's gotten to the point where the double earache has not gone away between rehearsals. I was considering quitting, and told four people. Now, everybody knows, and everybody is pissed at me, including the instructors. I told the four people that my decision was to be made at the end of Thursday's rehearsal (last Thursday), only, I couldn't get a ride to that rehearsal, so I wasn't there. Everybody assumed that I had quit--when in reality, I had made the decision to stick it out. So yesterday, a bunch of people bitched at me because I said that at some point, I had to to talk to the director--they assumed it was to make my quitting official--it wasn't, and I didn't have time to go and talk to the director. Then, my earache from yesterday never went away, and now I am flinching at the sound of me typing on this keyboard--that's how bad it is. So if I quit, I am hated, but if I stay, I risk my hearing, depression, and still being hated. So what do I do? Do I quit, or do I stick with it? Either way I am hated and lose more than the organization is worth.