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i really miss arkansas. the last few days I haven't really eaten, have smoked way to many cigarettes, and have gone from being depressed to homesick to a little excited to nervous to homesick to depressed to drunk to getting into a bar to kissing a girl i've know for an hour to being sleepy to being depressed to being homesick again.

my week so far has been so-so. actually, it's been worse than that. but i've had my moments of confidence and excitement, but too many breakdowns. and I really miss my friends.