Im gonna send the rain away.
As my recent entries demonstrate i have come through severe ups and downs as of late, very reminiscent of what all my early entries used to be like. I dont like being let down, stood up, rejected or seen as a failure even though i try harder to get what i get than so many other people,and in a completely unselfish way, im sick of being second fiddle, or being the sidekick or the tag along, or for being blindsided for my good qualities like sensitivity, and not being overbearingly masculine, im glad im not that way. would i be craig? i dont think so. If i was that guy, where would music and theatre lay in importance to me? But i know this, i know what i want, and i think i finally know how to achieve that. There is also the looming shadows of the end of college, and if i cant take my music or my acting somewhere while im still here, can i make it out there, with a real 9-5 job? i dont know, but i know i can't settle for that. I want anything but ordinary please, to reference miss lavigne. Also my resolve reflects everything that i need to do, to live, happily anyway. I can't settle for comfortable.