Its been a looooong time.
Well, Its been a long ass time since I've updated this and I guess I'm ready to start writing again. I guess I dont completely know why I stopped. I think it was just becuz everything in my life just got so damn complicated and I was always so pissed but I couldnt really explain it on here becuz I was kinda ashamed of what I was doing. Like I knew I was creating my own misery but I really couldnt figure out how to stop it. I did stupid shit in the past 3 or so months and a lot of it, and I'm sorry for it and I'm sorry to the people that I did it to. But I cant take it back and I'm just trying to move on with everything. I've changed SO much and people keep telling me that and I know it. But honestly, I dont think I changed so much for the bad, as I've changed for the good. Yeah, I'm a little meaner than I used to be but before I always got walked all over becuz I never stood up for myself. But I dont handle things right all of the time and me and my parents have been fighting like an unbelievable amount. I've been having more fun lately with my friends and stuff and not having to worry about boys has been super nice. But then again, I will probably have another boyfriend in no time at all cuz thats just the way I am. I dont know.. theres just so much drama going on right now and I'm not really that much of a part of it, but its def. still there and it def. plays a role in my everyday life. I dunno.. lifes still complicated, but I must say, my junior year is def. having its ups. I've gotten close with a lot of new people and I've met a couple new friends also. So I guess its not all bad.
Well, my job has been going well. I dont work a ton of hours but I suppose it starts out slow for everyone at first. I looooove working @ American Eagle. The people are so much fun. And I hung out w/Amanda tonight which was awesome cuz I'm def. expanding my friend horizon haha. So I plan on hanging out w/her and Chase a lot more. They're fun kids.
Volleyball tryouts have started and I'm not very confident. =[ I dunno, I'm just nervous and all that. I'm sure it will turn out alright in the end. And if I dont make the team, then it'll give me plenty of time to work and hang out w/my friends and thats ALWAYS good. So I'll have more money. And more money = more clothes. =]
My parents have been gay as hell lately. That sucks ass let me tell ya.
Well, I'm done for now. Maybe i'll start updating more often.. I dunno. Maybe when I'm bored. I'm not doin anything tonight tho.. I gotta work early tomorrow and my mother wont let me. Blahh.
xo, Erika
Well, my job has been going well. I dont work a ton of hours but I suppose it starts out slow for everyone at first. I looooove working @ American Eagle. The people are so much fun. And I hung out w/Amanda tonight which was awesome cuz I'm def. expanding my friend horizon haha. So I plan on hanging out w/her and Chase a lot more. They're fun kids.
Volleyball tryouts have started and I'm not very confident. =[ I dunno, I'm just nervous and all that. I'm sure it will turn out alright in the end. And if I dont make the team, then it'll give me plenty of time to work and hang out w/my friends and thats ALWAYS good. So I'll have more money. And more money = more clothes. =]
My parents have been gay as hell lately. That sucks ass let me tell ya.
Well, I'm done for now. Maybe i'll start updating more often.. I dunno. Maybe when I'm bored. I'm not doin anything tonight tho.. I gotta work early tomorrow and my mother wont let me. Blahh.
xo, Erika