Underwear in my back pocket, sure sign of the morning after...

[browneyedgurly]

Okay. I have a favor to ask of everyone. This isn't some survey or copy and paste thing that I found in someone else journal or that I want you to put in yours. It's a personal question that I'm really honestly curious about. I want to know what you all think of me, 100%. Things that I should keep up and things that I really need to work on. What

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[star_kisst]

oh, boo.

i don't think there is any doubt in anyone's mind that you are an AMAZING, talented, beautiful lady; and you care about so many people, and in such a way that i envy, and aspire to do as well.

i constantly find, that when i am with you, we are closer than close. i feel like we are incredibly alike, and it's easy. But other times, it feels like I am being smacked in the face, and not in a horrible, awful way, but it seems as if I know you less than anyone else. And i hate that. I don't even know what causes it. Sometimes it's something you say, or something you do; and it's not wrong, or cruel, or anything along those lines.

odd, yes? =)

i also tend to feel left out at times.
but i think we all suffer that.

i don't want this comment to sound 100% negative, because OH MY GEE, i love you beyond words! I think very highly of you, and am even jealous sometimes, for how hard you work, and get what you want.

you are one gorgeous girl, and i hope you know how much i respect you as a person. I know i am leaving 1 million and 2 things out, but at 10:37 at night, this is all i could muster.

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[browneyedgurly]

Yeah, I second that. I feel like the entire situation that took place in the food court was uneeded and personally everytime I look back on it I dislike the way we were sort of pressured into telling each other something and were left feeling akward and sad that the other people at the table both knew and the last one didn't, if that makes any sense. I much rather would have told you at some point on my own about my embarassing nights and mishappenings so that we could gain more of a trust and bond and stuff like that, and I'm not saying I never would have, it's just that having to do it at the table not only made me feel pressured but made it obvious to you that by some way or another the other two girls knew about it before you did.

And it's not that they're more special or that I love you less, it's just that I wanted to tell you on our own time in our own friendship in our own pace, yes? I don't know for sure but I'm pretty sure we felt likewise about the situation, because the flaunting of the fact that they knew something about you that I didn't.... didn't exactly make me feel swell either. Not that I'm holding it against anyone, I'm just saying it was a bad idea. I'm not saying that's the only thing you're talking about, but it's a good chance to clear up something I've been thinking about a lot lately.

Whew! It's good to get that off my cheast! Hee.

I also honestly think we should hang out some time one on one. The few classes we're in together are hardly a chance to share secrets, and our lunch together isn't one on one either. We should do something together sometime just you and I, then I'm sure by the end of the day we'll feel plenty replenished. =D

I love you so much and I'm extremely glad we're getting closer. You're the best.

[star_kisst]

oh, jillian rorrer.
how i agree with you.

so much.
and i am so glad you brought that up, because i have wanted to as well. when i tell you things, i want them to be special between you and me, and i hated that it was forced like that.

and it's not that i didn't want to tell you.
i just wanted the situation to arise, and then me bring it up.

the one-on-one thing sounds perfect.
we need you jill and brianne time.
i love you so very much.
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