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does true love, the "you are everything to me" kind of love really exist? are people wired for the eternal consummation of thoughts and feelings for one person?
i admit i fall into the lot of people that believe the above, especially if three little words: i love you, are spoken as insurance. im terrified that i will wake up one day (tomorrow, 15 years from now, it doesnt matter) and realize that the man i love is still in love with his ex and i am just the next best thing, or that love just isnt what i thought it was; not as strong, not as sweet, all a pretentious buildup that i couldnt see because i didnt want to look.
this is, of course, a far-fetched fear.
except when its not.
in my heart i know whats real. but i have been wrong.
i admit i fall into the lot of people that believe the above, especially if three little words: i love you, are spoken as insurance. im terrified that i will wake up one day (tomorrow, 15 years from now, it doesnt matter) and realize that the man i love is still in love with his ex and i am just the next best thing, or that love just isnt what i thought it was; not as strong, not as sweet, all a pretentious buildup that i couldnt see because i didnt want to look.
this is, of course, a far-fetched fear.
except when its not.
in my heart i know whats real. but i have been wrong.