Back To Reality...
I just had the most amazing weekend of my life. Not only did I not have to be in this smelly animal poo infested house, but I had an incredibly awesome date weekend.
so I went out on friday night with Alex, Autum and Nelson. We went to chili's and then rented a movie and hung out at Autums... it was more fun than I have had in while, I don't think we stopped laughing for more than 10 minutes when we were all at Chilis...then we rented some crap movies and made fun of them for a while before we watched some random ass japanese movie with subtitles, but it was actually hilarious haha... so then Alex and I stayed up talking til 7:30 in the freaking morning. Just talking... it was refreshing. then I crashed, got about 2 hours of sleep before aut had to wake me up because she was leaving for work...
so then saturday Alex came and picked me up from my house, briefly met the parents and then we went to dinner at la fiesta, delish.. then we went and played some pool, it was probabaly the most hilarious situation ever because we both sucked pretty horribly at pool, so we just kinda made fun of each other and ourselves for an hour or so haha...then we went to ocean walk and got some ice cream at coldstone and sat by the beach while eating/chatting... then we walked up and down the beach etc... and just kinda hung out talking at the beach til like 2am...
I really like this kid. A lot. He's pretty much most of the qualities I have felt I want for quite some time now, so I am really excited about this.
so anyway, during our date and the night before I got kinda nervous/worried that he was only feeling friendship vybes with me since he didn't try to kiss me or anything...I mean Aut told me that he can be shy, and told me to make the first move, but I'm way too big of a pansy for that... so naturally I started to worry when we were at the beach at night for like 4 hours and he didn't so much as hold my hand...
so this morning I was getting the 3rd degree from my parents when my phone rings and its Alex... he's like "hey, are you at home?" and I tell him yes, then he's like "okay"... so I laugh and am like... whyyy??... he laughs and says, "I'm just gonna stop by real quick" ... so I laugh we hang up.... so I'm basically freaking out because I don't really know whats up andmy parents are home and I just see this having the potential to get really awkward really fast haha... so I all but tell my parents to go sit in their room, which they don't listen to me haha, of course ...so he gets there and he calls and he tells me to come outside.. so I walk outside and he is standing in my driveway with a red rose and as I walk up to him he kisses me, quite passionately I might add haha...so I'm standing there shocked...and then I'm like "well helloo there" and we laugh and he explains that the more he thought about it the more he didn't want me to have the wrong idea and think that he didn't like me etc... he said he reallys likes me and he didn't want to have to wait til I came home next month to kiss me etc...so obviously I melted and we kissed a few more times, then he had to go to work haha... then I went inside and got harassed by my parents... I'm fairly positive my mother saw this, she's just incredibly too nosey to mind her own business haha, but it doesn't really matter...
I can honestly say that that was the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me. I can't really describe how it felt to have him want to let me know he liked me and kiss me so much that he did that. I just felt really great about that. I haven't genuinely felt this happy in a long long time. as of right now, I wouldn't call him my boyfriend or anything, but I pretty much have no doubt that that fact is only a matter of time. I finally am remembering what it feels like to not only really like someone, but know what it feels like in return. Not just me trying to read more into a flirty attraction, but to genuinely feel that someone really likes me. so yeah.... I'm happy :)
This has been a long time coming, and its really strange to me just how right it does feel. its crazy. okay I'll stop now before I jinx myself here... but yeah, I'm happy :)
so I went out on friday night with Alex, Autum and Nelson. We went to chili's and then rented a movie and hung out at Autums... it was more fun than I have had in while, I don't think we stopped laughing for more than 10 minutes when we were all at Chilis...then we rented some crap movies and made fun of them for a while before we watched some random ass japanese movie with subtitles, but it was actually hilarious haha... so then Alex and I stayed up talking til 7:30 in the freaking morning. Just talking... it was refreshing. then I crashed, got about 2 hours of sleep before aut had to wake me up because she was leaving for work...
so then saturday Alex came and picked me up from my house, briefly met the parents and then we went to dinner at la fiesta, delish.. then we went and played some pool, it was probabaly the most hilarious situation ever because we both sucked pretty horribly at pool, so we just kinda made fun of each other and ourselves for an hour or so haha...then we went to ocean walk and got some ice cream at coldstone and sat by the beach while eating/chatting... then we walked up and down the beach etc... and just kinda hung out talking at the beach til like 2am...
I really like this kid. A lot. He's pretty much most of the qualities I have felt I want for quite some time now, so I am really excited about this.
so anyway, during our date and the night before I got kinda nervous/worried that he was only feeling friendship vybes with me since he didn't try to kiss me or anything...I mean Aut told me that he can be shy, and told me to make the first move, but I'm way too big of a pansy for that... so naturally I started to worry when we were at the beach at night for like 4 hours and he didn't so much as hold my hand...
so this morning I was getting the 3rd degree from my parents when my phone rings and its Alex... he's like "hey, are you at home?" and I tell him yes, then he's like "okay"... so I laugh and am like... whyyy??... he laughs and says, "I'm just gonna stop by real quick" ... so I laugh we hang up.... so I'm basically freaking out because I don't really know whats up andmy parents are home and I just see this having the potential to get really awkward really fast haha... so I all but tell my parents to go sit in their room, which they don't listen to me haha, of course ...so he gets there and he calls and he tells me to come outside.. so I walk outside and he is standing in my driveway with a red rose and as I walk up to him he kisses me, quite passionately I might add haha...so I'm standing there shocked...and then I'm like "well helloo there" and we laugh and he explains that the more he thought about it the more he didn't want me to have the wrong idea and think that he didn't like me etc... he said he reallys likes me and he didn't want to have to wait til I came home next month to kiss me etc...so obviously I melted and we kissed a few more times, then he had to go to work haha... then I went inside and got harassed by my parents... I'm fairly positive my mother saw this, she's just incredibly too nosey to mind her own business haha, but it doesn't really matter...
I can honestly say that that was the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me. I can't really describe how it felt to have him want to let me know he liked me and kiss me so much that he did that. I just felt really great about that. I haven't genuinely felt this happy in a long long time. as of right now, I wouldn't call him my boyfriend or anything, but I pretty much have no doubt that that fact is only a matter of time. I finally am remembering what it feels like to not only really like someone, but know what it feels like in return. Not just me trying to read more into a flirty attraction, but to genuinely feel that someone really likes me. so yeah.... I'm happy :)
This has been a long time coming, and its really strange to me just how right it does feel. its crazy. okay I'll stop now before I jinx myself here... but yeah, I'm happy :)