like they have any right at all to criticize...
okay so in my week fo time to myself to think I have basically discovered that I am not someone who can live alone...I HATE it...I have been so unbelievably bored and lonely this week its not even funny..I would be the most depressed/sad person ever if I lived alone...=(
so yesterday sally kicked my assss at the gym... she taught me how to "box"...i put it in quotes because there was very little boxing in our workout and a lot more kicking my ass with cardio and ab work outs... I basically almost passed out and came really close to throwing up when I got home... sad huh? I'm a fucking lard ass...thank GOD I am doing this.. I really really need this... to think I ever thought I could quit this makes me laugh at my stupidity...but then again I can be pretty dumb... like how I shoved 4 tacos down my throat at jenny's after a pretty good day of working out...ugh will I ever get some will power? probabaly not... blah....at least I am going to the gym now...baby steps
I went to a spin class this past saturday too, after working out with sally at 8am...I basically wanted to kill myself so I wouldnt have to sit on that bike any longer... I would have taken a concussion from falling off the bike over finishing the class...seriously the actual pedaling wasn't bad.. it was the fucking tiny ass bike seat... I'm sorry but if you are up at 9am to do a spinning class on a saturday you are not just some skinny bitch... you are a fatty who is doing anything humanly possibly to lose some weight and you deserve a seat that will not have to be surgically removed after 45 minutes of sitting on it...I have bruises on my ass checks from this stupid seat... I'm just gonna bring in a beach bike seat next time or something and try and screw it on there...or get some of those biker pants that looks like you have a diaper on because it has extra padding in the butt... not that the padding actually helps because you can put all the padding on it all you want, that little bitch is still gonna go up your ass.....ok I'm gonna stop my rant now because I could probabaly go on forever....I'm good at complaining ha..
so in my week of time to myself to think I have reached another conclusion...I dont think I am going to find anyone (guy) in this town for me...its been 2 years and I haven't gone on a single date or met a single person in this town...I havent been flirted with in God knows how long...so if I dont end up alone forever (which is seeming more and more likely every day) I HIGHLY doubt I will find the person in this dumb ass town full of womanizers and frat boys ( I know I'm just mrs. optimism today huh?)...but honestly I am just sick and tired of being like "Oh I will find them someday, there has gotta be someone out there who will love me"...I dont want to wait forever...I'm 20 and I have only had one real relationship and it ended 2 years ago...and I am in college... I should have at least dated people since then... and its not that I dont go out that much because when I do go out I dont want to find someone in a bar or a club, those guys are just out for a piece of ass anyway or a random make out session, I want to find a guy with quality and substance, who wants to be in a relationship...I know good luck right?..ugh I am just so tired of being single, I just so tired of watching everyone else be so happy and have bright futures ahead of them and as of right now my future looks pretty bland and lonely... yeah I know its immature of me to be jealous but its human nature and I can't help it...I just want to be happy again...whatever I'm not really saying what I mean anymore... I'm just gonna quit while I'm ahead
so yesterday sally kicked my assss at the gym... she taught me how to "box"...i put it in quotes because there was very little boxing in our workout and a lot more kicking my ass with cardio and ab work outs... I basically almost passed out and came really close to throwing up when I got home... sad huh? I'm a fucking lard ass...thank GOD I am doing this.. I really really need this... to think I ever thought I could quit this makes me laugh at my stupidity...but then again I can be pretty dumb... like how I shoved 4 tacos down my throat at jenny's after a pretty good day of working out...ugh will I ever get some will power? probabaly not... blah....at least I am going to the gym now...baby steps
I went to a spin class this past saturday too, after working out with sally at 8am...I basically wanted to kill myself so I wouldnt have to sit on that bike any longer... I would have taken a concussion from falling off the bike over finishing the class...seriously the actual pedaling wasn't bad.. it was the fucking tiny ass bike seat... I'm sorry but if you are up at 9am to do a spinning class on a saturday you are not just some skinny bitch... you are a fatty who is doing anything humanly possibly to lose some weight and you deserve a seat that will not have to be surgically removed after 45 minutes of sitting on it...I have bruises on my ass checks from this stupid seat... I'm just gonna bring in a beach bike seat next time or something and try and screw it on there...or get some of those biker pants that looks like you have a diaper on because it has extra padding in the butt... not that the padding actually helps because you can put all the padding on it all you want, that little bitch is still gonna go up your ass.....ok I'm gonna stop my rant now because I could probabaly go on forever....I'm good at complaining ha..
so in my week of time to myself to think I have reached another conclusion...I dont think I am going to find anyone (guy) in this town for me...its been 2 years and I haven't gone on a single date or met a single person in this town...I havent been flirted with in God knows how long...so if I dont end up alone forever (which is seeming more and more likely every day) I HIGHLY doubt I will find the person in this dumb ass town full of womanizers and frat boys ( I know I'm just mrs. optimism today huh?)...but honestly I am just sick and tired of being like "Oh I will find them someday, there has gotta be someone out there who will love me"...I dont want to wait forever...I'm 20 and I have only had one real relationship and it ended 2 years ago...and I am in college... I should have at least dated people since then... and its not that I dont go out that much because when I do go out I dont want to find someone in a bar or a club, those guys are just out for a piece of ass anyway or a random make out session, I want to find a guy with quality and substance, who wants to be in a relationship...I know good luck right?..ugh I am just so tired of being single, I just so tired of watching everyone else be so happy and have bright futures ahead of them and as of right now my future looks pretty bland and lonely... yeah I know its immature of me to be jealous but its human nature and I can't help it...I just want to be happy again...whatever I'm not really saying what I mean anymore... I'm just gonna quit while I'm ahead