No I completely understand what your saying, and I have lied in the past, and your right I was going out talking to other people, and that was my fault, but he kept talking to other people, I got jealous and thought I need to find someone to get back at him for it.. I mean if u honestly seen all the times we spent together when it was just us it would be so much easier to explain or so.. and I know u think why does he have a reason to lie to me about this.. Just be careful Laura because with him there are alot of secrets and alot of things he holds back from everyone else. It's a personal issue for him.
It's just been hard for me to get over him and the things he did. I apologize for the way I said it to his mother but my intention was not to say you were a mistake.. Honestly Laura your a great girl.. and I mean if hes happy then I am happy if something ever did happen, but I just felt like my friend was betraying me.. Despite any feelings I had for someone.. If they liked the person before me, that person would be hands off, I couldnt do that to them no matter the outcome or my feelings.. I understand completely about wanting to feel happy..
but I mean, Matts always lied about something going on between us.. He has been caught red handed by some of his best friends lieing to them where he really was when he was with me.. It's ashame on my part that I let it last so long.. but I mean I care so much about the boy that I would do anything for him and it hurts but I have moved on..
I was just hurt by everything that was going on, and I really needed to keep some space for a while as I coped through it.. I didnt want a friendship to end over it, and I hope thats not what it leads to..
Its going to take alot of work and trust, but honestly, I could not hate u, believe it or not, despite everything I could not hate u.. U were one of my closest friends at one point and I confided alot in you.. Alots changed since then, but a boys not going to ruin a friendship. i refuse it to. Its stupid and rediculous!.. I even talked to Sam about this the other day. People assumed I hated you, but i dont.. I never wanted to stop hanging out and being friends, I just needed to deal with things on my own for awhile, and now its like everyones seperated from eachother.. Its a stupid high school thing.
I'm slowly starting to talk to him again, but at one point I need to hear from him why he led me on and didnt just let me know that he didnt want anything to do with me..
all i can really say is i understand why you wouldnt ever talk to someone that one of your friends have. but to me. its in the past and noone can change that. and what if you missed out on something wonderful cause you were so afraid of what everyone else would think.
and trust i am being careful. i just cant explain how i feel
and trust me i dont want to lose your friendship and i have told ppl that its just hard cause i do feel akward about it when i am around you both. so it is a hard situation for me to. cause i still dont know what happened in the past. and to be honest its the past so i am not worrying about it.
Yeah it is a little akward being around the both of you.. But I mean, I am better now, and like I said it will always hurt, but I am proud of myself that I was able to move on cause I really didnt think I would be able to..
It's going to take time of course to get things back to normal but thats life and you do you have to do.. Im ready to move forward and let the past be the past.
It's just been hard for me to get over him and the things he did. I apologize for the way I said it to his mother but my intention was not to say you were a mistake.. Honestly Laura your a great girl.. and I mean if hes happy then I am happy if something ever did happen, but I just felt like my friend was betraying me.. Despite any feelings I had for someone.. If they liked the person before me, that person would be hands off, I couldnt do that to them no matter the outcome or my feelings.. I understand completely about wanting to feel happy..
but I mean, Matts always lied about something going on between us.. He has been caught red handed by some of his best friends lieing to them where he really was when he was with me.. It's ashame on my part that I let it last so long.. but I mean I care so much about the boy that I would do anything for him and it hurts but I have moved on..
I was just hurt by everything that was going on, and I really needed to keep some space for a while as I coped through it.. I didnt want a friendship to end over it, and I hope thats not what it leads to..
Its going to take alot of work and trust, but honestly, I could not hate u, believe it or not, despite everything I could not hate u.. U were one of my closest friends at one point and I confided alot in you.. Alots changed since then, but a boys not going to ruin a friendship. i refuse it to. Its stupid and rediculous!.. I even talked to Sam about this the other day. People assumed I hated you, but i dont.. I never wanted to stop hanging out and being friends, I just needed to deal with things on my own for awhile, and now its like everyones seperated from eachother.. Its a stupid high school thing.
I'm slowly starting to talk to him again, but at one point I need to hear from him why he led me on and didnt just let me know that he didnt want anything to do with me..
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and trust i am being careful. i just cant explain how i feel
and trust me i dont want to lose your friendship and i have told ppl that its just hard cause i do feel akward about it when i am around you both. so it is a hard situation for me to. cause i still dont know what happened in the past. and to be honest its the past so i am not worrying about it.
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It's going to take time of course to get things back to normal but thats life and you do you have to do.. Im ready to move forward and let the past be the past.
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