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^^No!
I mean life is ok. It has it's advantages you know? like i have a wonderfull family and a few amazing friends who i would do ANYTHING for. And they know who they are -blah blah blah. But you know what? i don't think they do... Some of the people everyone would EXPECT me to like die for-arent the ones i would. If that makes sense. I mean--It does to me, and i guess taht is all that matters. but i dont know anymore.
Do you ever have those days/weeks/month/years &tc, where you just want to lie in a corner and wait until someone notices and pulls you out-just so you know they care? i mean---its like things end so fast, and all you have left is memories (good and not so good) and pictures. And of course the words exchanged.
I just feel like people are so fake now. "Perfect" life, friends, clothes. And it changes them--and I HATE THAT. I dont know
I was watching discovery kids--i know i was really bored and it was that or like el tigre or whatever. And there was this show on called "endurance" and "adventure camp" and i realized---i never take big risks or like go anywhere. I mean, yeah i go places with my parents--but i never take an idea and jump on it and go. i mean like ive never gone to camp alone. but anyways on endurace i guess karma was a pig part of the show this season (its like a little survivor) and it makes you think.
I've done mroet hings this year that im not proud of than in my whole life. I've said hurtful things and went the wrong way about everything. And maybe that is why i always feel like a storm is about to hit....
maybe
I mean life is ok. It has it's advantages you know? like i have a wonderfull family and a few amazing friends who i would do ANYTHING for. And they know who they are -blah blah blah. But you know what? i don't think they do... Some of the people everyone would EXPECT me to like die for-arent the ones i would. If that makes sense. I mean--It does to me, and i guess taht is all that matters. but i dont know anymore.
Do you ever have those days/weeks/month/years &tc, where you just want to lie in a corner and wait until someone notices and pulls you out-just so you know they care? i mean---its like things end so fast, and all you have left is memories (good and not so good) and pictures. And of course the words exchanged.
I just feel like people are so fake now. "Perfect" life, friends, clothes. And it changes them--and I HATE THAT. I dont know
I was watching discovery kids--i know i was really bored and it was that or like el tigre or whatever. And there was this show on called "endurance" and "adventure camp" and i realized---i never take big risks or like go anywhere. I mean, yeah i go places with my parents--but i never take an idea and jump on it and go. i mean like ive never gone to camp alone. but anyways on endurace i guess karma was a pig part of the show this season (its like a little survivor) and it makes you think.
I've done mroet hings this year that im not proud of than in my whole life. I've said hurtful things and went the wrong way about everything. And maybe that is why i always feel like a storm is about to hit....
maybe