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Most of the time I don't even understand why I do the things I do.
Don't ask me why.
I just don't.
And sometimes when I do the things I do, I tend to think they stem from crap I went through in the past.
And I HATE that.
I feel like I can't be myself.
Because everytime I do open up and be myself, I get hurt.
Can I just ask why?
That's all I've ever wanted to ask.
Both of you.
The 5 hr drive there and 5hr drive back guy.
And then there's endless months of that gray area, the uncertain area guy.
Both 2 different periods in time.
But got hurt by both in stupid situations.
And it's preventing me to put it into drive and go.
I'm stuck in park. Afraid to put it into drive.
Afraid on what the road ahead of me has in store.
I'm sorry for bringing it up.
But I just needed to vent.
Don't ask me why.
I just don't.
And sometimes when I do the things I do, I tend to think they stem from crap I went through in the past.
And I HATE that.
I feel like I can't be myself.
Because everytime I do open up and be myself, I get hurt.
Can I just ask why?
That's all I've ever wanted to ask.
Both of you.
The 5 hr drive there and 5hr drive back guy.
And then there's endless months of that gray area, the uncertain area guy.
Both 2 different periods in time.
But got hurt by both in stupid situations.
And it's preventing me to put it into drive and go.
I'm stuck in park. Afraid to put it into drive.
Afraid on what the road ahead of me has in store.
I'm sorry for bringing it up.
But I just needed to vent.