I DONT BELIEVE?
so here i am ..homecoming day and crying..
why?
i cant stop
everytime i get started
i cant stop
suddenly my eyes swell up and i cry.
heres what started it:
GAbriel(pastor boy)
soo okay he has a girlfriend named sarah and well b4 we began to talk they were already talking
anywho she was like a rowdy ho...so to speak..she is also a pastors daughter...
anywho she would jerk him around alot, she was a big tease.
so we were talking then we stopped and they were talking again...
so she came to church and my sisters were like ooh shes a bitch
shes ugly
blah blah blah
but when i met her she was very pretty!!!!
very pretty
soo anywho she has a little sister and well one day her parents asked the church to pray for her duaghter because she has cancer!
we thought it was the little one but it was sarah..
so like i thought it wasnt that big o deal
but its "hodgkins" lymphoma
stage three
malignant...
yesterday i was driving with gabe downtown going towards the hotel and well we were talking
and i asked how she was and he explained all that was gonna happen,her condition,and chemo
soo he said something that i will NEVER FORGET
due to the passion in his voice..
he said
(after i explained about what might happen...her dying...)
"Syl DONT TALK LIKE THAT,thats not even an option..im gonna marry this girl..shes the one..
I already talked to GOD..and lord i will do your bidding,ill do your work and minister to your people,but i want the girl of my choice and i choose sarah."
he talked with such love and emotion that i couldnt help but want to cry..he loves her sooo much
can you imagine loving someone with that passion?
and then i thought about he calls me sweetie and says i love you
because ya know we're soo close!
hes like a brother and when he hugs me he hugs me with a deep passion that
means he just wants me to hold him..to reassure him..but i cant
or i havent..its like ive been such a bad friend and i dont know...
i love him soo much and i dont want him to get hurt
but he might and that scares me soo much!
hes been there with all the shit we've been through with my brother and i feel like i cant
NOT LET HIM GET HURT..
If i could spare each of my friends pain I would..i would..
but i cant and that hurts me soo much
and while we were in my room
he was on my bed w/my laptop and i was about to close the door
when he said
"It'll be okay all we have to do is have faith in the lord
he does these things for a reason..all we need is faith."
all i said was "hah."
why?
i cant stop
everytime i get started
i cant stop
suddenly my eyes swell up and i cry.
heres what started it:
GAbriel(pastor boy)
soo okay he has a girlfriend named sarah and well b4 we began to talk they were already talking
anywho she was like a rowdy ho...so to speak..she is also a pastors daughter...
anywho she would jerk him around alot, she was a big tease.
so we were talking then we stopped and they were talking again...
so she came to church and my sisters were like ooh shes a bitch
shes ugly
blah blah blah
but when i met her she was very pretty!!!!
very pretty
soo anywho she has a little sister and well one day her parents asked the church to pray for her duaghter because she has cancer!
we thought it was the little one but it was sarah..
so like i thought it wasnt that big o deal
but its "hodgkins" lymphoma
stage three
malignant...
yesterday i was driving with gabe downtown going towards the hotel and well we were talking
and i asked how she was and he explained all that was gonna happen,her condition,and chemo
soo he said something that i will NEVER FORGET
due to the passion in his voice..
he said
(after i explained about what might happen...her dying...)
"Syl DONT TALK LIKE THAT,thats not even an option..im gonna marry this girl..shes the one..
I already talked to GOD..and lord i will do your bidding,ill do your work and minister to your people,but i want the girl of my choice and i choose sarah."
he talked with such love and emotion that i couldnt help but want to cry..he loves her sooo much
can you imagine loving someone with that passion?
and then i thought about he calls me sweetie and says i love you
because ya know we're soo close!
hes like a brother and when he hugs me he hugs me with a deep passion that
means he just wants me to hold him..to reassure him..but i cant
or i havent..its like ive been such a bad friend and i dont know...
i love him soo much and i dont want him to get hurt
but he might and that scares me soo much!
hes been there with all the shit we've been through with my brother and i feel like i cant
NOT LET HIM GET HURT..
If i could spare each of my friends pain I would..i would..
but i cant and that hurts me soo much
and while we were in my room
he was on my bed w/my laptop and i was about to close the door
when he said
"It'll be okay all we have to do is have faith in the lord
he does these things for a reason..all we need is faith."
all i said was "hah."