your right you always deal with shit and i admire that about you, but i understand that you cant always deal with shit. Its weird i talk to people and its like they really care and want to give me good advice, or do give me good advice, but im only half listening. Inside i think: " hmm what are we having for lunch?" or im lost in my problems again. I just want to vent and have someone receive all my anger,hurt, and frustration. But when you tell someone u usually get that, "oh...wow..hmm...really?" or " Man that sux..hope things get better...everything will be fine." i want to be able to talk to someone that is going through the same things to be able to bond, and contemplate whats going on. sometimes i just want to rock away in my hammock lost in my thoughts and coccooned self. stare out and hope i find the answer. i sometimes stare out or go quiet hoping that ill find what i need to know I want to say that you can talk to me. you can,ya know TALK to me but if i dont understand or feel what your feeling i wont be able to help. but still maybe i do know, maybe i can help. maybe... i dont know why your hurting wish i did it should be something soo painful to make you cry. you shouldnt have to carry this by yourself. you have friends...ALL Of US! but sometimes i feel that if des or amy or anyone knows that theyll shrug it off. Just another big joke.. Everyone seems to live perfect lives and it sucks! but hey come over some day or well go out, walk the river walk, go to hemisphere park, or do something and talk. I find i can always talk while i walk the river.hehe river :) guess its the environment..i dont know. but deep down i feel like i need to pray but i think ive forgotten how. ....................................................................................................................................................................................thursday
Its weird i talk to people and its like they really care and want to
give me good advice, or do give me good advice, but im only half listening.
Inside i think: " hmm what are we having for lunch?"
or im lost in my problems again.
I just want to vent and have someone receive all my anger,hurt, and frustration.
But when you tell someone u usually get that, "oh...wow..hmm...really?"
or " Man that sux..hope things get better...everything will be fine."
i want to be able to talk to someone that is going through the same things
to be able to bond, and contemplate whats going on.
sometimes i just want to rock away in my hammock
lost in my thoughts and coccooned self.
stare out and hope i find the answer.
i sometimes stare out or go quiet hoping that ill find what i need to know
I want to say that you can talk to me.
you can,ya know TALK to me but if i dont understand or feel what your feeling i wont be able to help.
but still maybe i do know, maybe i can help.
maybe...
i dont know why your hurting
wish i did
it should be something soo painful to make you cry.
you shouldnt have to carry this by yourself. you have friends...ALL Of US!
but sometimes i feel that if des or amy or anyone knows that theyll shrug it off. Just another big joke..
Everyone seems to live perfect lives and it sucks!
but hey come over some day or well go out, walk the river walk, go to hemisphere park, or do something and talk.
I find i can always talk while i walk the river.hehe river :)
guess its the environment..i dont know.
but deep down i feel like i need to pray
but i think ive forgotten how.
....................................................................................................................................................................................thursday
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