I need / I want
I was not going to write about this, but it has been on my mind for the past three days so much that I cannot contain it anymore.
I am content with my life. I am comfortable for the first time in my life I have surrounded myself with a large group of supportive people, I have an excellent job, a newer car and a great apartment in a beautiful city. I don't feel as if anything is missing in my life.
This past week has really opened my eyes to the fact that I can make myself happy. I can do that without anyone or anything. But having all that I need within myself does not mean that I have all that I want. In school I can remember being taught the difference between needs and wants. The teacher would pass out a sheet and would instruct us to fold it in half. On one side we would list needs and the other wants. I can remember the things the other kids listed on their wants list. Items like, Playstations or CD players.
My list didn't include material things, because the things I wanted were things most kids recognized as needs. I can't help but think how my list has changed not that I am older. I know from where I am now I would like to settle down with someone and begin to start a family.
Family was another thing that I didn't have much of, so my approach to it would be very different then most. It would take time, but it is something I hunger for so badly that I would stop at nothing to provide stability and love in my family. Once I have achieved that I would want to introduce a child into my life with that other person. Professionally I am content however I would like to move out of the private sector and into the public sector.
There are very few people I can imagine sharing this life with but I was reunited with one of them very recently and It really opening my mind and made me think. What is next? Where do I go from here? I wish I had the answer to either of those questions.
I am content with my life. I am comfortable for the first time in my life I have surrounded myself with a large group of supportive people, I have an excellent job, a newer car and a great apartment in a beautiful city. I don't feel as if anything is missing in my life.
This past week has really opened my eyes to the fact that I can make myself happy. I can do that without anyone or anything. But having all that I need within myself does not mean that I have all that I want. In school I can remember being taught the difference between needs and wants. The teacher would pass out a sheet and would instruct us to fold it in half. On one side we would list needs and the other wants. I can remember the things the other kids listed on their wants list. Items like, Playstations or CD players.
My list didn't include material things, because the things I wanted were things most kids recognized as needs. I can't help but think how my list has changed not that I am older. I know from where I am now I would like to settle down with someone and begin to start a family.
Family was another thing that I didn't have much of, so my approach to it would be very different then most. It would take time, but it is something I hunger for so badly that I would stop at nothing to provide stability and love in my family. Once I have achieved that I would want to introduce a child into my life with that other person. Professionally I am content however I would like to move out of the private sector and into the public sector.
There are very few people I can imagine sharing this life with but I was reunited with one of them very recently and It really opening my mind and made me think. What is next? Where do I go from here? I wish I had the answer to either of those questions.