for christmakkah all i want is you
Jordan
hey. its me jess im writing you another letter..agian and another one you will never get to see again. lol the reason im writing this one? welp. i guess its cuz its almost christmas and im writing for what i REALLY want. and that , thats you. look i don`t know what i did or if i even did anything or if you heard something? or did one of your friends see my pic in rickys planner? i have no clue he was going to put that in there i swear. or maybe cuz i was flirting with him? did u see us? or did zack tell u some stupid shit? i`ve been thinking about us a lot and i just wanted you to know that i haven`t forgotten about u and i never will. when i moved and after awhile u stopped coming over yeah..i was thinking about other guys but there wasn`t a day that went by that i didn`t think about us about you. and thats the truth. i think were like a seth and a summer even though u probably never watch the oc cuz u will think its a chick flick or whatever lol. there were millons of nights when i wanted to call u and ask u to go out with me on a saturday night but i was always scared one to have u say that someone was hott in front of me like u used to do and i did too but u stopped that over the past summer after our date=) i felt special but then again u always said u only liked me as a friend but i knew u didn`t cuz u always should it like how i was "staring" at zack when we went to game stop..u didn`t talk to me the whole way home and like a hour when we got home cuz then u were like "and then jessie is just staring at zack" i never got it till now and now i do. and all ic an say is sorry there were times i came home crying cuz i missed you so much and all i could think about is you and lauren and shawn gawdd jordan they remind me of us they r soo much like us i started bawling when she started going back out with him cuz yeah i missed u and u haven`t called me back yet when i called u and im still waiting im never ganna give up jordan..i know that we might not be something now but i do know that we will be together someday and i know u will call me..i met somebody he is just like u he makes me laugh till i gatta pee lol and hes a sweetheart but just cuz i like him dosn`t mean i stoped liking u..thats never ganna happen i just wanted u to know that and also im ganan be praying for us this christmas..well i better go ill talk to u later..
love-
JESSERZ
ps the other night when i was crying..i looked up at my glow and the dark stars on my wall and i was couting all the memories we have per star i was doing great..then i rang out of stars