Life
I finished my research paper woo hooo! that only took 234234 hours. SO why does the continuation of sad things keep happening? All this talk of death and suicide makes me so sad. It make me miss all my michigan friends, my uncle who shot himself, my great uncle who died, all my cats from when i was a kid, my great grandma, my grandpa that i dont even remember, my great aunt like 2 years ago, micheals dad who is gunna die ne time who is like a grandpa to me, it makes me miss anything that is worth missing. Im really glad im going to the funeral with kaylene, i feel sooo bad for her. Ahh i just want to take all this away from everyone. The thing that scares me the most is thinking that that couldve been me in just...if just minor things didnt happen. The way i felt when i moved her almost took me to that...no joke. When i completly broke down on Christmas cause mike is an asshole i cried for like...a good 4 hours just with my head in my arms in the corner of my basement...wish i could have a hippo hug...another football game....one last party with alex....one more movie with jake.....one more ride down mt. holly with andrew and belmer. One last jam session with the aviators or skewhawd....just one more. one last run around the track there....one last great conversation...one last funny lunch.....one last tutorial or flex day. One more ride on the jets skies and one more wake hit on the wakeboard. One last time around the lake blasting livin on a prayer by bon jovi with matt...one last time sittin on his pontoon listening to now 1-24...and singing alll the words to everysong while we played hide and seek and squirt guns like little 10 year olds even tho we were 16. one last march with the band, one last dance....i just want it all back im so greedy.
BUT...even tho i miss all that everysecond of everyday. I have one person that makes up for it ten fold. With late night phone calls to the greatest kisses ive ever had ever...eeevvveeeeerrrr. The way she makes me feel through all the pain and all the suffering....its like there is none at all. So id like to give a thanks....Thank you Kaylene...you my angel from heaven and you saved me. Ill always love you for that, always, always, always...always(4 times for u hah). So heres to one person that changed my life forever no matter how it turns out...u saved me...you saved me.