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Very scared. I feel worse instead of improving, and the urinary tract infection is worse, despite the antibiotic a few weeks ago. How am I supposed to work! I will need money a few weeks from now. Dave and I are doing all we can to stay together, but he can't bankroll me, and I wouldn't want him with me if I get worse. So if I have to move back with my parents, please understand we don't want it that way. We love each other, but we both know love can't conquer all. It's not even a matter of being unable to drive, but unable to work. How silly was I to be thinking I'd have been back at work this past Tuesday? And for all the people slacking on disability, it sucks when you really can't do things. I think of the guy at work, out for a year for "back" problems. I can't respect that. They better not let him have his diability and not me. I never saw this coming. I plan to go to the union office after the doctors. Mentally though, and physically, I just want to be asleep till this is resolved.