So Here I Am
I'm writing again. I found that last Friday was fairly therapeutic for me, so I am going to try again.
Work seems slower and more trivial than ever, but that's what happens when you are quitting your shit job after 3 years. I did however make an old lady tear up because "no one has been as kind to her as I had been in years." She gave me a hug. That probably turned my whole life around. Sometimes just smiling and sharing a kind word with people can have such a profound effect. It's nice to walk out on something like that because I feel like such a basterd after I get off my job. I'm a real asshole, well an asshole for me, behind that service desk.
Even with that in the bank, I can't help but feel alone. It will get better. Hope is all I have.
I've been going to the gym more lately. It was nice after that unhealthy streak I went through. I always feel so powerful after leaving the gym. It's a beautiful feeling to work yourself to oblivion. To take out all my fear, anger, and paranoia on those machines gives me real peace of mind.
I should finally be wrapping up my vocals for the cd on Friday. Good deal.
I'm not allowed to go by Barnes and Noble or the comic shop anymore for fear of spending Christmas money I don't have, but in my haste I found World War Z. This is probably one of the best books I've ever read.
Until tomorrow.
Work seems slower and more trivial than ever, but that's what happens when you are quitting your shit job after 3 years. I did however make an old lady tear up because "no one has been as kind to her as I had been in years." She gave me a hug. That probably turned my whole life around. Sometimes just smiling and sharing a kind word with people can have such a profound effect. It's nice to walk out on something like that because I feel like such a basterd after I get off my job. I'm a real asshole, well an asshole for me, behind that service desk.
Even with that in the bank, I can't help but feel alone. It will get better. Hope is all I have.
I've been going to the gym more lately. It was nice after that unhealthy streak I went through. I always feel so powerful after leaving the gym. It's a beautiful feeling to work yourself to oblivion. To take out all my fear, anger, and paranoia on those machines gives me real peace of mind.
I should finally be wrapping up my vocals for the cd on Friday. Good deal.
I'm not allowed to go by Barnes and Noble or the comic shop anymore for fear of spending Christmas money I don't have, but in my haste I found World War Z. This is probably one of the best books I've ever read.
Until tomorrow.