The Real Entry
No quote this time. I don't have my own computer set up, and thus, no quote file.
Today is a good day. Seriously, a good day. After the emotional chaos of the last few days, this was just sort of pleasant and relaxing, with only a few moments of tension. Had two finals today. Actually, one today and one yesterday, but miraculously, I caught the instructor for the one I'd mistakenly missed, and he let me take the final on the spot, which was cool of him. I should have easily done well enough on both to secure my A's in those classes, which is always done. Then, I came back to the dorms to find that Jared had finished replying to my comment on his entry, which was exactly like my previous entry. I found it amazing, and my initial doubts the worth of such a thing went away in a hurry. So, today was largely focused on saying nice things about my friends, and then finding out what they had to say about me. That makes for a good day.
For those of you who read the Friends Only entry before that, well, I had a nice, long conversation with her, and she listened and thought about what I said. I don't know that it's going to change the situation at all - in fact, as it stands, I'd say probably not - but at the very least, she seems to have matured a little because of it. I learned a number of things about her that concerned me about her, and I'm worried that she's prepared herself to make some very bad life decisions, but all I can do at this point is let her find out on her own if I'm right or wrong. We've still got a good opinion of each other, and we'll still be friends. However, I know for a fact that being "just friends" after a relationship isn't something I'm good at, so I set up a limit to get some distance. We only talk every two or three days. It's sort of a silly limit, and I don't know how well it'll work. It might even backfire, as from time to time today, I've wondered if she's missing me. But it's something different, and it's worth a try, because I believe that at the very least, the friendship is worth trying to salvage. But all in all, I think the emotional rollercoaster is over. I've settled into a relatively calm place, and can find myself content. I can even be doing nothing, and not have mournful, depressing thoughts creep into my mind.
Of course, today's not all a bundle of sunshine. Far from it. Just moved home from the dorms, back here with my family. Things are going to be more unpleasant than usual around here. We found out today that Grandpa has cancer. Plus, our bulldog, Precious, is deteriorating pretty badly, and the time's come where even my mother realizes that the kindest thing we can do for her is to put her down. Both are old as the hills, led a decent life and are ready to give it up... But it's not a happy time. Personally, though, I deal with death far more easily than anyone else I've ever known who wasn't actively seeking the death of the party concerned, and I'm going to find the "mourning family" thing tiresome and obnoxious. But it WILL be nice to screw around at home and do nothing, and not have to worry about my feeding schedule. Online gaming is out, but I've got all my consoles. So...
Let the holidays begin!
Today is a good day. Seriously, a good day. After the emotional chaos of the last few days, this was just sort of pleasant and relaxing, with only a few moments of tension. Had two finals today. Actually, one today and one yesterday, but miraculously, I caught the instructor for the one I'd mistakenly missed, and he let me take the final on the spot, which was cool of him. I should have easily done well enough on both to secure my A's in those classes, which is always done. Then, I came back to the dorms to find that Jared had finished replying to my comment on his entry, which was exactly like my previous entry. I found it amazing, and my initial doubts the worth of such a thing went away in a hurry. So, today was largely focused on saying nice things about my friends, and then finding out what they had to say about me. That makes for a good day.
For those of you who read the Friends Only entry before that, well, I had a nice, long conversation with her, and she listened and thought about what I said. I don't know that it's going to change the situation at all - in fact, as it stands, I'd say probably not - but at the very least, she seems to have matured a little because of it. I learned a number of things about her that concerned me about her, and I'm worried that she's prepared herself to make some very bad life decisions, but all I can do at this point is let her find out on her own if I'm right or wrong. We've still got a good opinion of each other, and we'll still be friends. However, I know for a fact that being "just friends" after a relationship isn't something I'm good at, so I set up a limit to get some distance. We only talk every two or three days. It's sort of a silly limit, and I don't know how well it'll work. It might even backfire, as from time to time today, I've wondered if she's missing me. But it's something different, and it's worth a try, because I believe that at the very least, the friendship is worth trying to salvage. But all in all, I think the emotional rollercoaster is over. I've settled into a relatively calm place, and can find myself content. I can even be doing nothing, and not have mournful, depressing thoughts creep into my mind.
Of course, today's not all a bundle of sunshine. Far from it. Just moved home from the dorms, back here with my family. Things are going to be more unpleasant than usual around here. We found out today that Grandpa has cancer. Plus, our bulldog, Precious, is deteriorating pretty badly, and the time's come where even my mother realizes that the kindest thing we can do for her is to put her down. Both are old as the hills, led a decent life and are ready to give it up... But it's not a happy time. Personally, though, I deal with death far more easily than anyone else I've ever known who wasn't actively seeking the death of the party concerned, and I'm going to find the "mourning family" thing tiresome and obnoxious. But it WILL be nice to screw around at home and do nothing, and not have to worry about my feeding schedule. Online gaming is out, but I've got all my consoles. So...
Let the holidays begin!