Aroo?
Before I get to the point, let me just get this cleared up. Hey...fuck you too, bruddah. Eat a bag of dicks.
Now that I have that out of the way. So apparently, I really can't seem to hit a middle ground lately. Previously, I was working on gaming stuff non-stop. The work going into the Red Dawn CBT campaign was a huge amount of time, and I touched almost nothing else in the gaming arena. That game has been on pause for quite a while now. So I had some lovely ideas for a Tampa SR setting and an alternate CBT timeline. Work seemed to go well, as I continued at what I thought was still a fairly breakneck pace. Then all of a sudden, I can't even find the energy or inclination to even touch anything related to gaming (save for the new Old Dogs game) in the last ten days or so. Just looking at any of the projects makes me feel tired without even writing a damn word. So my streak continues. There's only on/off and no flow regulator.
This seems to be the case with my online activity in general. When I'm having fun posting, it seems that I'm only pulling out the asshole card. I'm not sure when the things I find funny led to me being such an ass. I miss the pressure valve of Bulldrek, I think. I understand that it's back...but honestly, it really isn't. Traffic isn't much more than freespeech was, and the Bulldrek forum only seems to enjoy the type of threads that I find utterly fucking useless. I miss some of the story threads, I miss the lively debates, and I miss the gaming discussion. The traffic that is there (especially in Bulldrek) is concentrated in threads I can't begin to understand. What's the draw of the word or number association threads? They've always baffled me, especially considering the amount of traffic they've generated over the years on AB and BD. I found it easy to be the asshole on BD, and I didn't carry it over to other places as often. I found myself enjoying other sites more, simply because I could toss some mental demons out on the threads of BD. Now, I drop by the CBT forums, and all I can seem to find is the same arguments of years gone by but carried to even greater extremes. Dumpshock seems to have fallen into the same boat from the time I've spent lurking there. Even with the recent surge of RPG discussion on Animalball, I just can't seem to find a way in. It's great discussion, but when I go to post anything about it...there's just nothing there. Any threads I start generally just seem to fall flat on their face in most of these places. Not sure where I lost it, but it be gone, it be bye-bye.