Paging George Bailey...
I know it's a cliche, but..... Have you ever wondered what the world would be like if you'd never been born?
Honestly take a look at your life--the things you've done, the people you've met--and ask yourself: What would it be like if I had never existed.
I know that there are those whom I have hurt.... but I have to look at the larger picture. It's not about the hurt, it's about the entire interaction. I can't speak to all the relationships, but I *do* believe this: Of those I have hurt, the vast majority fall into 2 categories: Those who would have followed the same path with a different person, and those who gained far more from me than what I took from them.
When I look at my life, I say--without arrogance and without pride--that I have created more good than I have pain. And even of the pain, much has only been the price of growth; stones on the Path of wisdom. There are times that require a catharsis; a purging of dead flesh and destructive ghosts through the searing flames of understanding and desire.
I may not be a hero. I may not have fame or fortune. Things may often look dark, and the weight of choices may feel like it's crushing the spark from my soul... but I know that the good I have done--the good that I have given--far outweighs the evil I have allowed to happen.
What would the world be without me? It would be smaller by a handfull of people. It would be far sadder by a score. And it would be more ignorant by an order of magnitude.
If I were to die today, I believe that both Anubis and St. Peter would find the scales--however slightly--to tip in my favor. However, I've never been a man to gamble against the House, so I will continue on the Path which will tip the odds in my favor. For no matter how far the scales may tip, I know that the weight of my sins will never vanish from darker plate, and their weight will always be with me.
Imported from the Buzz
Honestly take a look at your life--the things you've done, the people you've met--and ask yourself: What would it be like if I had never existed.
I know that there are those whom I have hurt.... but I have to look at the larger picture. It's not about the hurt, it's about the entire interaction. I can't speak to all the relationships, but I *do* believe this: Of those I have hurt, the vast majority fall into 2 categories: Those who would have followed the same path with a different person, and those who gained far more from me than what I took from them.
When I look at my life, I say--without arrogance and without pride--that I have created more good than I have pain. And even of the pain, much has only been the price of growth; stones on the Path of wisdom. There are times that require a catharsis; a purging of dead flesh and destructive ghosts through the searing flames of understanding and desire.
I may not be a hero. I may not have fame or fortune. Things may often look dark, and the weight of choices may feel like it's crushing the spark from my soul... but I know that the good I have done--the good that I have given--far outweighs the evil I have allowed to happen.
What would the world be without me? It would be smaller by a handfull of people. It would be far sadder by a score. And it would be more ignorant by an order of magnitude.
If I were to die today, I believe that both Anubis and St. Peter would find the scales--however slightly--to tip in my favor. However, I've never been a man to gamble against the House, so I will continue on the Path which will tip the odds in my favor. For no matter how far the scales may tip, I know that the weight of my sins will never vanish from darker plate, and their weight will always be with me.
Imported from the Buzz