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My goodness, how things change and still stay the same...
Another long day at work. Not long in the sense that I was there longer than 8 hours. But long as in I hate my job and wish I had something I found some sort of join in doing. I’ve been at Amycel-Spawnmate almost 5 years now. Over 4as a temp. I’ve put up with racist ideology, ignorant attitudes, junkies, and the dumbest boss in the history of ( Read more... ) -
The Sunken Place
Hoping to find something familiar or just something that would make me smile...just made me sad. I miss my enthusiasm to write what I felt. More than anything I miss the beautiful friendships that came with it. I’m going to use this method of therapy to get me through to wherever I’m going. When I don’t talk to someone for a long time or ( Read more... ) -
3:16am inspired
what i feel never matterd ( Read more... ) -
Here and accounted for...
I'm still focused and on that path. I've had my cravings and my moments of weakness, but this time around like I said things are different. I feel like the cons outweigh the pros for the first time in a long time. Even though that is always the case. I just don't understand why I couldn't see it. Now that I'm on this journey I've started to ( Read more... ) -
BMF!!!
Blowing money fast. I think Im cursed. I really can't keep anything in my pocket... the hundreds of thousands I've always found a way to blow. seriously.... runs through my hands like water. I know the next time I get a good chunk of change I'll be in a better position. 10k in less than two weeks...wow. thats actually kind of slow for me. for ( Read more... ) -
Make it Mine
I think I've come such a long way in such a short amount of time. I'm working hard and I'm extremely motivated. Differently than times before. Its like I'm a different person. Things still are affecting me, but it don't rock my world and make me go backwards. That might also be because I'm making a conscious effort to just focus on me and be a ( Read more... ) -
I can't put it in words... I can put it in rhymes
Everyday its been the same ( Read more... ) -
Turnin' Up, but my turn up not working
This is day 3 of me geting my life in perspective. as an addict I've been here before. but this time things are a lot more serious. Before I used to always depend on myself because obviously that's where it starts. But lately I've realized I can't do it alone. Not here, not in Delaware. I can't distance myself from the things that draw me. ( Read more... ) -
It's a party... it's a party..it's a party....eehhhhhh!
Sitting here feeeling like I've run a marathosn, though I've never un one of those. I just feel beat. So maybe thats a bad comparison. I'm sure after a marathon you would feel accomplished or proud. I share neither of those emotions. I'm just trying to keep focused on things getting better or I get used to living this thing we call a shit ass ( Read more... )