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10:08 PM
So I've been thinking of what I could write about and I really have no clue what I should write about, but the things that have come to mind lately. So I have been trying to motivate my partner. / wife /, I don't know what you want to call it because at this point it just feels like I'm on my own.
I'm on my own.
I want to feel like I'm on my own. But it that seems to be what it is because I could get up and go to work at 6 in the morning. Come home and I had to feed myself. I got to do everything. I gotta find my clothes, got to make sure I have those. I got to make sure the kids ate. Like today. She said they're fine because it's been tons of food for them to eat. And I get it, it's food here. Things they can buy for way for themselves and stuff like that, but I've been getting on her one. Really not getting on anybody, but I've been expressing how the foods we eat, are not healthy for us. So, having a home cooked meal will be nice. Every once in a while.
We have food here. But, It's going to go when it's going to go fast. I really like get like 10 days of like being able to eat after that, it's wrap. Then she's asked me what I want to eat, like she was gonna cook the same five things, and I don't say that to be mean. That's the truth. Hamburger Helper. Steak. Pulled pork. Cheeseburgers and occasionally pork chops.
I'm losing my grip, I'm trying my hardest. I've tried everything to motivate this person.
The only motivation and I can think that no, there is no motivation at work because even leaving doesn't work because we've been separated before. Generally, it's not as if she thrives, but she finds a way whatever. I've done. This person doesn't want to work with me to move forward. This person doesn't want to better their lives. This person doesn't want more out of life. They are content with sitting down. And watching TV. Forever. Like my father used to talk about.
My father used to talk about how I was going to waste my life by watching people live their lives. You know, by watching TV. And essentially, he has cursed me to live my days out by watching my partner, watch TV. I'm hurt.
Severely hurt.
So I've been thinking of what I could write about and I really have no clue what I should write about, but the things that have come to mind lately. So I have been trying to motivate my partner. / wife /, I don't know what you want to call it because at this point it just feels like I'm on my own.
I'm on my own.
I want to feel like I'm on my own. But it that seems to be what it is because I could get up and go to work at 6 in the morning. Come home and I had to feed myself. I got to do everything. I gotta find my clothes, got to make sure I have those. I got to make sure the kids ate. Like today. She said they're fine because it's been tons of food for them to eat. And I get it, it's food here. Things they can buy for way for themselves and stuff like that, but I've been getting on her one. Really not getting on anybody, but I've been expressing how the foods we eat, are not healthy for us. So, having a home cooked meal will be nice. Every once in a while.
We have food here. But, It's going to go when it's going to go fast. I really like get like 10 days of like being able to eat after that, it's wrap. Then she's asked me what I want to eat, like she was gonna cook the same five things, and I don't say that to be mean. That's the truth. Hamburger Helper. Steak. Pulled pork. Cheeseburgers and occasionally pork chops.
I'm losing my grip, I'm trying my hardest. I've tried everything to motivate this person.
The only motivation and I can think that no, there is no motivation at work because even leaving doesn't work because we've been separated before. Generally, it's not as if she thrives, but she finds a way whatever. I've done. This person doesn't want to work with me to move forward. This person doesn't want to better their lives. This person doesn't want more out of life. They are content with sitting down. And watching TV. Forever. Like my father used to talk about.
My father used to talk about how I was going to waste my life by watching people live their lives. You know, by watching TV. And essentially, he has cursed me to live my days out by watching my partner, watch TV. I'm hurt.
Severely hurt.