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Life is pretty stagnant these days...each day I wake up and feel like I'm drinking dirty water.
I've been in Longview since June 10th and as much fun as the summer turned out to be, my time here has quickly turned to boredom with routine and the urge for something new. Not to mention I feel like, for the most part, I have outgrown my family. I just live on a completely different planet from them. Each one of them presents to me a different personality trait that clashes with my own. The most frequently recurring issue seems to be the lack of respect for boundaries. In Seattle I had my own protected space...and in Longview it seems everything is up for grabs.
I have grown up and have my own ideas about how to deal with deception, betrayal, theft and so on...this makes it incredibly hard to get by day by day without giving my mother and grandmother a piece of my mind on how they should best deal with the ongoing drug addictions of my brother and 2 cousins.
On the horizon is this amazing opportunity...
I decided I wanted to study abroad in Australia last fall and it's crazy to think that I actually went through with the whole process of applying. At the time I cooked up this idea I was thinking to myself less about the actual experience and more about the long, drawn-out process involved in applying and whether I would be able to cut it. I feel good about the fact that I was able to follow through. My biggest flaw is my inability to follow through on projects. I'm right in the middle of the final hurdles and things are looking great. In 2 months time I will be gearing up to leave for Sydney on what will hopefully be the adventure of a lifetime. I am so scared but at the same time so grateful that I have been given the life and opportunities that I have.
I don't want to screw it up.
I've been in Longview since June 10th and as much fun as the summer turned out to be, my time here has quickly turned to boredom with routine and the urge for something new. Not to mention I feel like, for the most part, I have outgrown my family. I just live on a completely different planet from them. Each one of them presents to me a different personality trait that clashes with my own. The most frequently recurring issue seems to be the lack of respect for boundaries. In Seattle I had my own protected space...and in Longview it seems everything is up for grabs.
I have grown up and have my own ideas about how to deal with deception, betrayal, theft and so on...this makes it incredibly hard to get by day by day without giving my mother and grandmother a piece of my mind on how they should best deal with the ongoing drug addictions of my brother and 2 cousins.
On the horizon is this amazing opportunity...
I decided I wanted to study abroad in Australia last fall and it's crazy to think that I actually went through with the whole process of applying. At the time I cooked up this idea I was thinking to myself less about the actual experience and more about the long, drawn-out process involved in applying and whether I would be able to cut it. I feel good about the fact that I was able to follow through. My biggest flaw is my inability to follow through on projects. I'm right in the middle of the final hurdles and things are looking great. In 2 months time I will be gearing up to leave for Sydney on what will hopefully be the adventure of a lifetime. I am so scared but at the same time so grateful that I have been given the life and opportunities that I have.
I don't want to screw it up.