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i feel like total shit now. I guess i should have assumed she had a boyfriend, but once i heard those words, it was like a dagger going through my heart. All life just died right there. I just got so angry. She seriously is the perfect girl...she has the same loves as i do, she can drink guiness and mostly any beer...she is absolutely the girl i want to be with. I can tell her anything and i know she'll get me. I've never really understood why she always broke up with me, but i never cared. I always looked at it like a "boy meets world" thing, minus the whole "knowing each other since we were 4" thing. I have this gut feeling like i should be with her...but i can't get her to be with me.
If she won't love me, how can i get anyone else to love me...i don't know anymore...
I got offered the job in columbia for 3 weeks...don't know if i want to go anymore...i told her that i want to go just to see the town...but it was really to see her...but it'll be when she's here...
I started bartending, i love it, good money, good atmosphere, get to stay busy...
i just wish i was happier...
If she won't love me, how can i get anyone else to love me...i don't know anymore...
I got offered the job in columbia for 3 weeks...don't know if i want to go anymore...i told her that i want to go just to see the town...but it was really to see her...but it'll be when she's here...
I started bartending, i love it, good money, good atmosphere, get to stay busy...
i just wish i was happier...