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my brain is in a conflict with itself. my heart is strongly on one side, but do i listen to my heart? a friend tells me i go with my heart too much. should i challenge myself and see if i can stick to my brian on this one? hum. im not going to rush anything ill let my choice become a little more clear as time goes on before i make my choice i guess.
sean called me tonight. piss drunk. "im really worried i dont know how ill get home" blah blah blah. he drove his two friends to a bar in newport beach. got shit faced because one friend said he would drive his car home. this guy bails on him leaving him and this other guy stranded. i was in downtown fullerton tonight with some friends not really even drinking, i had a beer and some buffalo wings. (for free which makes it better) and i was going to go with his brother to go pick him up and drive his car back home. yeah. why do was i even willing to do that? this guy need to learn. i found out that the guy who he got stuck with is the peice of shit ive always hated. now that sean is lonly and depressed (i guess) hes callin him now. hes going to get himself into trouble. this time, i cant be there to sway him otherwise. hes a big boy and needs to learn things on his own. after i found out who he was with i wanted him to be stranded out there. hes going to fuck up and i hope i dont care to help. i need to stay strong.
ive got so much on my brian right now i hate it. do i keep it in? talk about it to the person and hope i dont come off the wrong way? fuck.
i hung out with my sister tonight. danced a little, very little. it was still fun depspite me dealing with drunkin sean on the phone. lame.
sean called me tonight. piss drunk. "im really worried i dont know how ill get home" blah blah blah. he drove his two friends to a bar in newport beach. got shit faced because one friend said he would drive his car home. this guy bails on him leaving him and this other guy stranded. i was in downtown fullerton tonight with some friends not really even drinking, i had a beer and some buffalo wings. (for free which makes it better) and i was going to go with his brother to go pick him up and drive his car back home. yeah. why do was i even willing to do that? this guy need to learn. i found out that the guy who he got stuck with is the peice of shit ive always hated. now that sean is lonly and depressed (i guess) hes callin him now. hes going to get himself into trouble. this time, i cant be there to sway him otherwise. hes a big boy and needs to learn things on his own. after i found out who he was with i wanted him to be stranded out there. hes going to fuck up and i hope i dont care to help. i need to stay strong.
ive got so much on my brian right now i hate it. do i keep it in? talk about it to the person and hope i dont come off the wrong way? fuck.
i hung out with my sister tonight. danced a little, very little. it was still fun depspite me dealing with drunkin sean on the phone. lame.