Hmmmmm......
Was standing for aarti at the end of a puja and for some reason, the loud singing and the Pandits and the entire paraphernalia irritated me! Had it not been for the fact that it would have looked really bad, if I had walked out of the aarti in my own house, I would have!! It suddenly occurred to me that I was more at peace with myself and God as I now him, as I talk to him, and I dont need to go to a temple or do anything as obvious as chant mantras to be able to connect with him. I often talk to him and call on him every now and then, thanking him for a good day, remembering him on a bad one but nothing convinces me to participate in anythin which reveals to the entire world my relationship with him. There have been days in the past when he has failed me, when he could have done otherwise, things that could have changed life for my entire family, prevented the loss of dear ones, and for sometime, my faith in him was shaken up!!!
Eventually, I have accepted the fact that everything happens for the best!
Still can't get over the whole affair that I had to sit through today, I guess because there were 5 Pandits chanting the same thing and there was so much chaos, I wondered whether God would not be in a place more peaceful.....sometimes I just can't understand the purpose behind all this, but then even priests have to earn a living!!!
Eventually, I have accepted the fact that everything happens for the best!
Still can't get over the whole affair that I had to sit through today, I guess because there were 5 Pandits chanting the same thing and there was so much chaos, I wondered whether God would not be in a place more peaceful.....sometimes I just can't understand the purpose behind all this, but then even priests have to earn a living!!!