jobless and homesick
today has been hell... very emotional for me.
i'm having a hard time finding a job and it is stressing me out.. the only place i've found is a job on 2nd shift and i really dont want to work on 2nd shift. i know i shouldnt be picky... soo ive been considering it. but at the same time considering it is stressing me out even more. i cant sleep now.. all i can do is lay there and breakdown. ive never NEEDED a job and now that i do i cant find one. if i take this job on 2nd shift i will literaly see jerry 2 days a week. i dont know what to do... a huge part of me wants to go home to my mom... i miss her a lot... not being able to see her everyday.... i just want to be able to talk to her whenever.. i am very homesick.... i'm going to get the second half of my tattoo 2morrow and then go home to see her and the kids... i really miss my baby sister gracie too... it's so quite here without them all i dont know what to do... i feel like im going insane... everything has really stressed me out... i just want to go home.... this is really hard for me. and i dont know how to get over all this... how to calm down about things...
i miss my family....
i'm having a hard time finding a job and it is stressing me out.. the only place i've found is a job on 2nd shift and i really dont want to work on 2nd shift. i know i shouldnt be picky... soo ive been considering it. but at the same time considering it is stressing me out even more. i cant sleep now.. all i can do is lay there and breakdown. ive never NEEDED a job and now that i do i cant find one. if i take this job on 2nd shift i will literaly see jerry 2 days a week. i dont know what to do... a huge part of me wants to go home to my mom... i miss her a lot... not being able to see her everyday.... i just want to be able to talk to her whenever.. i am very homesick.... i'm going to get the second half of my tattoo 2morrow and then go home to see her and the kids... i really miss my baby sister gracie too... it's so quite here without them all i dont know what to do... i feel like im going insane... everything has really stressed me out... i just want to go home.... this is really hard for me. and i dont know how to get over all this... how to calm down about things...
i miss my family....