Roses are red, Violets face will be blue!!!
sad...alone...hating the world right now...dont really know whats wrong...life just seems to go by slower, every minute filled with more pain and suffering...others dont know how lucky they are....they take what they have for granted....not me....everyday having to force myself out of bed, force myself to go to class, force myself to hang out with people instead of lying around my room playing video games and feeling sorry for myself...my baby called yesterday and today....i think i will give details just for perks...so yesterday he called and it was one of the best conversations we had ever had....it meant so much to me...i feel bad because i am always depressed when he calls and u would think that hearing his voice would make it better but it just makes it harder....he is so strong..i wish i was like that...he hates todd....i understand why....we have so many plans for the future that is the only thing that has excited my interest here lately....he callled me today during my play....I had to like whisper and tell him to call me back if he could...so he did but i was out eating but i talked to him anyways...jamie was like its rude to talk on the phone during dinner and i was like does it look like i care? so we talked while i ate and then he called me back again after i was done eating but then we were going to play tennis...so he called me when we were almost done playing tennis so we talked more....i love that boy so much it hurts...he told me about this bitch named violet that wanted to give him a walkie talkie so that they could talk to each other at night time but he said no...stupid whore...i will take care of her later....i mean who does she think she is....tramp....when i was talking to jason i told him how i think life isnt fair and i dont know how he does it but he just stays so inspirational and said life is fair because even though we are apart now when we are together that will make it even more special....then i complained about even though he is going to be in VA he will be getting shipped off again anyways...he was like its just like if i was at a different college....he always finds a way to make things better...sometimes i get scared that when he comes back he is going to be good for me.....that i will have changed to much in a bad way....he used to have some much of my bull shit...now i am so angry and pissed off all the time that it might rub off on him....he is the only thing that has been making me happy lately.....but i am sleepy so i am gonna watch my yankees and then take a shower and go dream...i love dreaming because everynight that is where i get to see Jason and not have to worry about anything....