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i dropped my fucking cell phone in my glass of tea.
i was asked if the tea atleast tasted good.
it really did.
i wish it didnt, cause then i wouldnt have wanted to drink it and this never would have happened!
he says he only went to see her because he needed someone to talk to. about me. im sorry but i think there could have been a better choice. you dont go to someone to talk about who youre in love with, when they are completely inlove with you. use your fucking brain.
[EDIT: 430 am] i havent given up on him. i should. and i dont know why i havent. im making myself look like a complete idiot. i really am. but i still have hope for him. its in my gut. and we all know brooke listen to only herself. thats bull-headed me.
i'm going to have to "give up" on him if I want to be ok. and i would like that very much. he was my favorite.
its not giving up or running away at all. or even being a quitter as i've been told.
its about coming to the realization that i have false hope and i'm expecting so much out of nothing.
after everything he's said to me, i will always care. i will never hate him. i hope his life gets better. more than i hope for mine. it kills me i couldnt help more.
i was asked if the tea atleast tasted good.
it really did.
i wish it didnt, cause then i wouldnt have wanted to drink it and this never would have happened!
he says he only went to see her because he needed someone to talk to. about me. im sorry but i think there could have been a better choice. you dont go to someone to talk about who youre in love with, when they are completely inlove with you. use your fucking brain.
[EDIT: 430 am] i havent given up on him. i should. and i dont know why i havent. im making myself look like a complete idiot. i really am. but i still have hope for him. its in my gut. and we all know brooke listen to only herself. thats bull-headed me.
i'm going to have to "give up" on him if I want to be ok. and i would like that very much. he was my favorite.
its not giving up or running away at all. or even being a quitter as i've been told.
its about coming to the realization that i have false hope and i'm expecting so much out of nothing.
after everything he's said to me, i will always care. i will never hate him. i hope his life gets better. more than i hope for mine. it kills me i couldnt help more.